life for rent

2010-12-05T22:11:00.002+08:00

Automobiles.Bikes.

Gathered extensive knowledge of them all..
must be my work and just a general interest i guess..
saw it somewhere..,
was glad that One share the same interest as I do.
''Likes cars, bikes and ....''
Not that bloody thick skin to say that i influenced it-.-''
Nevertheless..,
secretly i felt guilty..
May each ride be a safe one..

2010-12-05T22:07:00.002+08:00

A lack of time.
4 years worth of verbal diarrhoea left vacant for too loong.
perhaps! if i did stay true,
Thoughts would have become much clearer.
Actions would have been implemended.
I ask myself: Is it too late to pick it up again?

Sometime, Somewhere..,
A few times,
I do wonder if those who had been here did remain..
Selfish aint I?

*pondering*

2010-10-16T03:41:00.002+08:00

was amazed that i still remember the password to Here;
after being gone for so long..

Back from HK..
with not much of a change.
tried not to be bothered, kept a distance did i?
was hit with the truth..
all that we guessed and predicted;
but tried to keep a neutral mind, to give The One the benefit of doubt.
to choose to trust The One you know.
It was all but a Lie.
Supposed to be SO mad. SO disappointed.
Supposed to be ignore and not forgive.
Sad. Extremely sad. Of course I am.
The period after the showdown..
thought One would be ashamed to face Thou again.
But hey! how does one earn his forgiveness by being absent?
everyone deserves a second chance, right?
I sincerely thought.
Everything was back to the norm,
Very Quickly.
People around were amazed.
How do you manage to face Him like such..
I wondered alot about it.
So curious;
if he felt the weird-ness of the so-normal situation too.
All were Hands-up and still are;
that it is all a Mistake.

Eating here. Wandering around there.
The good times after the showdown..
it was as if all were resolved.

Gestures deemed special.
A smirk or smile deemed exclusively mine.
seen given out to another.
A cruel slap in the face.
To hell for being nice to a newcomer.
dished it out. appeased.
but not for long..
Waiting around for the other;
when it is clear that i Detest it.
Refusal to talk it out.
Playing the fool as if nothing happened.
believed *secretly* of self-relisation.
so be it so be it..
alas! nothing's changed.
the two yet the same..
To look at such,
To hear such; disgusts me..
and worst of all: the heart hurts.

Displeasure voiced.
but was ignored by the other..
what to do next?
i really cannot afford to see.
I really Cannot.
turned another way, when i see.
walked another way, i did.
be away, to not witness. i did!
the after hours are still as if normal..
But the heart is still heavy..
As if a knot, still there.
it doesnt feel nice to have a constant worry.

To voice it out again?
To keep quiet and continue...?
i really dunno.

Many ugily said:
He's buying time yet again;
to see if the next fish (newcomer) got hooked?
before confirming anything with Thou.
WHAT!?

Deep inside, i know i got to say it out loud to The One.
But many deemed this situation has no case;
and it may even deduct my 'marks'...
The cost of keeping silence is slowly taking effect.
how to how to?

Maybe the end is near..
the two months to next year;
seems a day too long.
i'm afraid i may not have the strength to last till then..
So afraid all the was built, all the hardwork,
all the moments made to go to waste..

I will need a place to hide,
when it all falls apart.
A place to hide;
for a very long time..

2010-08-08T16:36:00.001+08:00

Counting down to the start of my leave...
It's still a week away (too long)..,
But there's still so many things undone..
Ahem!
Luggage to pack,
Routes to plan.. Zzz!
With a constant distaction..,
Kinda hard to start things going..

Those who cared..
Asked:
Why the sudden trip?
True to be told..
Maybe I need do need some time away.
From distractions and whatsoever..
Or maybe a week of Change,
Hopefully!! I'll see things differently when I get back..
*cross my fingers*

As dumbdumb as YY can be..
I Thought I could drop a bomb;
To do smth that I always have no courage for..
To stand up for once and demand an answer..
To I dunno.. Break that bad habit I guess.
And at the same time;
To gather enough armour for protection-
For what just seems so obvious to truely land..
Greedy enough..
I hope to be immuned!
( to heartache )
To be hard-hearted!
To have more then enough determination to stay away..

Deep down.
I know that it won't work....

2010-07-29T10:06:00.001+08:00

Dun waste the love.

2010-07-15T19:06:00.001+08:00

My annual leave is going to be here soon.
Missed the non-working days like hell.
Remb during my first leave;
I was busy touring the zoos..
Haha. Thought that this second leave-
I'll be touring the museums..
But hey! Caught the travelling bug.
Wanted to go somewhere foreign,
And at the same time shop till I drop!
Wad aiming for Thailand with a few friends..
But sadly, we can't apply for the same leave...
Thou hereby announce-
Going to HK this aug

Yup! You got it right..
Must put our HK friend to some use..
Heard it's the typhoon season!!-.-
Pray hard it won't be there when I am there...
*cross my fingers*
hope that's my kind of things to shop there too!>.<
Perhaps I'll come back;
Fluent in Canto!! Who knows!?!

I was questioned..
Do u really one to go to HK;
Or is it to take revenge..
Wahaha. A creative thought!
It did put me into thinking..
Seeing the YY's pathetic state now,
Would rather be close then apart right..-.-
Maybe it'll be of some good use to exchange roles..
To not be the one left in spore, worrying..
We shall see..

Footnote:
Promise to meet for mahjong regularly..

Good luck to my night shift later!
Lady Luck, I do need you:)
MERCI^^

2010-06-19T14:27:00.001+08:00

FrAnco's terribly slow..
Despite my oh-so-detail instructions,
He just can't put what he heard into actions- To create a twitter account.
So frustrating!

Hey there..
If you saw this..
Ahem! I'll make sure you will anyway..
Please hurry and create one.
Before I roar your hostel down..

I applaud myself.
To forgo the easy money and not work tml's Sunday shift..
Still feeling super slow after yesterday's MC...
just wanna take it easy.
I'll miss the good old money nxt month.
I'll tear my hair apart with boredom tml.
Just no motivation to get cracking..
You can say:
The pre-night shift syndrome.
I DETEST IT.
No good for the skin.
No good for the social life.
~#^€¥¥ Night Shift!

Footnote:
Going to my first ever 2a outing tonight.
So super shy!!

2010-06-19T13:24:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday Yuan Chang!!

2010-06-10T12:15:00.001+08:00

Had a smashing 21st birthday.
The YY style:)
No great parties etc..
Just spending the day with those who matters..
Or shld I say with those who;
Play an essential role in my life now..
The norm- eat movie stroll.

Everything just feel so different even though it's the same old place..
Must be the AGE! -.-

Had a very nice dinner with The cousins..
And ktv afterward was great.
Was shocked speehless!
When I saw my 4 years old baby cousin:
Singing DOWN-.-
That hip hop Xiao Hun Hun song..
The world has changed.. Haha.
First time YY did sing during a ktv section.
The 29th deserve smth special:)

PRESENTS!!
I heart.
Received the essentials..
Wow! Saved a ton of money..
Haha. And you know what!?
I received a huge yuan chang's poster!
I was like GOSH- I really need that.
How dumdumb of me not to make one for myself..
Jin Jia gamsa yo!
The essentials an the frivolous..
Hmm.. I heart! <3

Without knowing..
I'm into my 2nd week of the 21st.

Kanabate!

Footnote:
Weekdays working hours.
Rainy day.
Umbrellas. Passer-bys. Orchard.
Mocha. Outdoor starbucks.
Back to the olden days...
I miss~

2010-05-29T13:43:00.001+08:00

Came into realization that yst is the day of my 20 years of age..
Ahem! The youth I left behind..
Took it with a pinch of salt.

Went out with my friend:)
Watched a movie..
Wished Allen Happy Birthday..
He's just a day before me.
For the past 4 yrs, we've been sharing tha same cake..
Fate is kinda scary..
Never will I ever forget his birthday in my coming years..
A promise to honour..
Without him, no today's ms tan I guess!
It's that important..

Reflected back on my kiddy days..
When I was sparring with mr chan and mr wong..
The days when I always lead the pledge.
To the carefree poly life.
The complicating bugis life.
The days with Alan.
To the day when I landed on my first 'serious' job..
Wow! A damn long way..
Used up alot of brain cells,
Exhausted alot of emotions.
Complains aside,
Learnt truckfull of stuff too!

Achievements I dun have many..
How about:
- living successfully up to this age with enough knowledge and money I get by..
- preserving my tiny group of non-lian jia friends..
- invented the notion of non-lian jia-ness..
- gathered a body-full of street smartness..
- and the yong yong's way to handle things..

I am sure there's nth of Great importance that I didn't do, didn't say or didn't buy..
Met my dateline:)

The first 20 years of my life;
Went through and completed..

Dunno what will the 21st brings me..
Will some stuff be a reaction of what I gathered in my last year..
I know not.. But hey!
I'm ms tan le.. Tsktsk!
I'll manage:)

Enough of all the soul searching..
Going to enjoy my day..

Footnote:
I still own the world..
Regardless of how DumbDumb I may be,
Hey! Lady luck will wake me up when the time is right..

Blessed be><

2010-05-26T12:19:00.001+08:00

Lost count of how long I've been gone..
Rotating shifts didn't stop me from having a life..>.<
met up with all those who cared..
Simply awesome to lose yourself and mingle witha group of friends instead of my usual 2 by 2..
Almost kinda forgot what is it like to be in a group..
Ahem! Especially a group of all girls.
A pleasant change:)
Whatsoever...
Admist all the cam-whoring
and laughters,
I was constantly reminded of my friend.
By nobody else but myself-.-
Tested and verified.
Oh gosh! Dun remb ms tan to have that much care and concern..
My age must be catching up with me..
What nonsense I know..
Seriously need a better distraction><

Speaking about that..
Soon to be 21.. Shuts!
A million things to do, to plan before that day..
Planning parties for myself has always been a no-no..
Love the gifts! $.$
but hey.. It totally insults celebration.
For yours truely..,
It only fits when others plan One for you.
We can't stand lian Jia-ness.. Can we?
Haven met one who has the same mindset as i though..-.-

A question for all..
To celebrate..
On an important day to remb..
Do you prefer surprises or the comforting knowledge that someone has already 'booked' your time?

A tough choice!!
The anxiety and 'saddness' that lingers around the fear of -sitting and waiting- in hope of smth good to happen with the constant reminder that everything might be a zero Does make surprises that addictive..
Worthy of all the hassle?

So blessed I think you all..
If you are all booked.
The Comforting knowledge that somebody will be there..
Early booking is the key!
Some say if he or she has the sincerity..
Something to think about.
Minus the element of surprise,
It may not leave such a big impact..
But hey! At least you won't be alone..

On another hand..
The widely dreaded-
No one came toward..
The aivid planner who dun leave things up to fate..
Regardless of what occassion,
Even to celebrate for oneself.
You always take the initiative..
Guaranteed to not be one.
But hmm.. One would doubt the sincerity of those around you..

Damn!
What to do?>.<

2010-04-03T12:24:00.001+08:00

Gave up on east coast park cycling on thursday..
Totally exhausted!!
Slept like nobody's business;
A good change from the previous early mornings..
Watched clash of the titans..
The highly anticipated show-
AHEM! No 3D effect expeienced..
So all shld know what to do. LOL.
But again. It was Good:)

'Richie Rich' friend of mine bought
yet another porter bag..
Two in a period of two weeks;
Without even blinking!
Damn~ shldnt have introduce him the brand.. Aw!!

A slow day and early dinner marks the 4th day of leave..
Too fast too fast:(

2010-04-03T12:18:00.001+08:00

Re-experienced my childhood..
Went to the ZOO! :D
It is so super different.
Was quite shocked at the difference..
But who to blame;
It was more then a decade ago since I last been there.
Can say to be the only sibgaporeans roaming around.
It was as if I'm out of Singapore!
As hot and humid as Singapore can be,
We still decided to go about by foot..
Plenty of animal shows in the day:
Refreshes the bored mind from the endless parade of lazy animals..
Haha. You'll be surprised at how much they sleep.
It irks me to see no action.
I do pity the lions!
Supposed to be the king of the food chain; their glory seems to be taken away by the white tigers..
Poor lions- the den so faraway,
So empty of fasinated humans..
Didn't see any cows and chickens around though..
Said by my friend: this is ain't no farm
But a zoo-.-
A snmall relief in some way, had kfc for lunch!

Dito to the zoo and welcome the night safari when darkness falls..
Oh my word.. So exciting!
It was more crowded then the Zoo-.-
Saw a group of handsome nippons..
*finally*
Could see the animals up close;
Sans walking with the tour on the tram..
It was so cool-
Not knowing what's looming around in the darkness..
There's even a sign:
Keep your hands and legs inside the tram.. -.- I like!!

Someone shld issue a speeding ticket to Time..
It just went too fast while I was having fun..
Gone is the second third day.....

2010-04-02T07:16:00.001+08:00

Toured around spore like a tourist.
The second day of leave.
Time does flies~
Went to sentosa;
Did what I always wanted to do-
Sit and stare on the beach! :)
Yup.. There's no lack of bikini clad women; despite it being a tues..
all the same, no eye candy for me though..
Went to ahem!
Take a look at the most pricey estates in spore.. The Sentosa Cove etc;
With garages lengendary parked with the most porsches in spore..
Doesn't look out of the world.
But I still gape openly fantasizing about the life of all those living there..
haha. Saw a few nice looking light haired walking their dogs..
Geesh! You can only wish>.<

Missed the universal studio..
2 major rides were down,
Defeats te purpose don't you think-.-
All the same; bought a great souviner..

Since I started early,
Naturally there's still plenty if time left after sentosa..
Went ahead to roam around Chinatown.
Walked. Walked all the way till cityhall.
Completely a half a year's worth of exercise in a day. Tired limbs!

2010-03-30T22:46:00.001+08:00

It was 7 days and a free weekend counting down till the last of my leave..
Very significant! I would say..
The first official paid leave ever..>.<
nobody seems to believe it.
My aunt my brother;
Kept questioning.. Why no work today?
Oh gosh! There must be in a panic..
The workaholic ms tan out if job -.-
Oh please..
Absence are more often noted;
More then presence..
Quite the opposite,
My presence is deemed weird. Lol.
Can't help it though.. ^.^

On the faithful first day.
Didn't do much..
*that's the whole point*
Went to stone like nobody's business;
At a cosy starbucks of course!
Haha. Oh yah!
Alomosg forgot..
Went back to SP for the food.
So much have changed..
To note: no special yearning.
Dinner was at fisherman's wharf.
Yummy!

Marks the end of the first day..
Geesh~

2010-03-28T00:28:00.001+08:00

It's a relief to know that my blogskin is still working..>.<
The hassle you have to go through..
Gosh! Luckily it was fine..:))

Aiwen is coming home! FINALLY*
Not for good yet, just for holiday..
Hmm.. So looking forward to see her.
Thou shall grill her about her bf.
A Nippon. I was dann glad.
Only the exclusive will suit..

An announcement to make.
First time, first time..
I'm going for a 'paid' leave.
Never once had such annual leave..
Long ago, in bugis;
No work Aka rest day means no pay day.
Tak about the greatness of big companies!:))
The first leave-
No plans to travel overseas..
So I've decided!
Shall enjoy what spore has to offer!
Be it: sentosa, the universal studio,
ECP or WCP.. They will do!
SWINGS!!!
Haven't been to the playground for a very long time..
Since during sec sch with yunli *loves*

Nevertheless, still considering very hard!
Shld I go to batam with my friend?..
We shall see!

Till the next activity;
It's shopping and more shopping:)

Footnote:
Any good reads to recommand?

2010-03-13T04:44:00.003+08:00

Early in the wee morning..
my First night shift.
awaiting the horrible early morning rush.
gosh! may all be alright.
envy all those who are warm in bed.
damn! -.-

blessed be:)

2010-03-09T19:59:00.001+08:00

The virgin post using my iPhone!
You bet I do miss the colours and sizes.
Makes it more lively, doesn't it?
But still, u shall make do!:)

Hard at work everyday,
But secretly feeding the cinema after work. You'll be amazed, how many movies I've watched. Haha.

Been to a wedding dinner.Again.
This time the Marriott>.<
I do love the suite!!
Allen's brother's wedding..
The 'rooftop' pool was amazing minus the many buildings destroying the view-.-
The ballroom. I guessed it right!
Is THAT. The ballroom for the SP dNd..
Wasn't I surprised-,-
The ballroom not much an envy though.
Laughs*
We celebrated Love done right.
Damn glad!;)

My tweety bird collection,
I should say has ahem!!
Grew out of qproportion..
One particular friend of mine,
Brought back a whole collection;
To me.. The whole freaking tweety shop at movie world; aussie..
A big surprise I would say..
But One just can't help questioning the intentions-.-
They ain't for free you know..
To mend my guilty soul:
Ahem!! Maybe there're just tissue paper cheap~.<

My turn to go on leave is coming soon.
Nope!! No overseas trip.
Would like to spend- Read:
My first 7 days of paid freedom in spore! There's alot to do..

Be blessed!

2010-02-18T13:46:00.003+08:00

i was busy living my life..

People at work call me YONGYONG! -.-''
i was like wth.. but nevertheless i love, love, love.
blessed be, i will answer.
I call this recycling:) to hell with it's history.

once famously said:
the blog is where the true self is revealed.
it is where the truth; be it nice or nasty is exposed..
forgot how many years is it seen i said that.
it still holds! even without my daily whims.

i was recently told to read someone's blog.
Mind you, not a friend of mine.
i dun acknowledge it even though we did meet in the past.
oh please~ who needs that kind of friend.
(written with much gusto)

Blogging can be a form of diary keeping.
a damn efficient way if you ask me.
An outlet of emotions or a stage to express one's thoughts for some.
The one that i was told to read;
was a clutter.
it was updated dilligently everyday. (YY is ashamed!)
wasn't friends with the owner,
but it kind of get me worried of her mental well-being.
oh goosh! embrace smiles:)) even though i know it's darn hard.
yippie! blogging something hoping in vain the certian enemy
or the S.O (Significant Other) will catch the clue.
a mode of communication.
which i believe is useless unless he really follow up on your blog like a bible:)
But doent it sets you wondering;
how would you know if a person is really reads your blog unless he tells you?
even if he does; does he follow up dilligently is another question..
Hmm.. Been there Done that. Whatever~
Remember: blogs are public.
Good luck to you kido. haha

HEYHEYHEY!!
My Love-Yuan Chang came to spore:)
at JP! at BP plaza! oh goosh~
was super excited.
Waited for 3 hours for his arrival. pictures! tons of it.
he was really Tall- 188cm.
far from my sec sch giant harold, but still defeated the 183s (alan) Laughs.
saw his head sticking out from the crowd when he's approaching the stage.
JP was packed! screamScreamscream.
Some of his pictures/photos do suck,
but hey! in real, he's dropdead, crossYourheart handsome.
i only speak the truth.
not one to be put down by his ugly photos;
yes LimLim i know his photos are ugly-.-''
he danced and sang. when he pointed into my camera,
and fingered a heart in the air,
too memerized that i forgot to press the shutter.. Damn!
to promote his EP, he signed mine.
and shook my hand. so many to tell him.
but was too engrossed with his person that i lost my tongue.
Super High!! A day i will never forget..
Do come back soon!

A good year ahead for all. Roar!!
happy LNY:)
took advantage of the season and collected as much free $$ as i can.
the years left to do so, are decreasing slowly. Oops!!

and with LNY came Valentine's <3>Cupid bless those with the S.O.
Cupid find those without..

the long holidays of mine, jammed packed with events.
the days of money grabbing,
and the nights of movies..
I hereby declared:
YY is Well Loved:)
Impossibly pampered!!
Long live- Choices.

footnote: working hard towards my chanel wallet.
A Whopping S$1190.
sometimes i wonder why dun i just settle for other brands.

2010-01-18T18:37:00.003+08:00

it's Monday again..
kinda freaking how time flies..
without knowing,
i've worked for- 6months at SGH.
without knowing,
it didnt seem so long to me though.

Did i mention i received xmas gifts?!
bottle the envy! >.<
dont you agree belated gifts holds the most surprises?
like after the disappointment etc..
but keep in mind;
this doesnt mean i mind getting belated gifts.
*Pointing at Franco*
i still hail punctuality:)
From my cousins..
Super haPPy!
among those is a sliver Calvin Klevin Jeans triple ring.
In sliver.
it's amazing how this ohh-so-simple looking ring cost.
sky-priced. i would not get it for myself. muhaha~
the finanically stable. that's how i categorised them.
Love the ring:)) wearing it everyday;
despite how mismatch it looks with the rest of me.

always one who adores rings over necklace.
necklaces? not really my cup of mocha.
they clashes with my eyerings! hah~
i was This___ faithful to my ring.
always sticking to one.
Remember the days where i lost my 'Ring' in SP.
it was horrible!
would of course go to great extent looking for it.
Friends of mine; know how 'emotionally attached' am i to my ring.
i'm a ninny at gifts! OOPS~

Gifts-
chosen with the thought for other.
maybe that's why most people treasure them more.
as a self-acclaimed Ninny,
my collection of gifts, will put any Garang Guni to shame.
From family to the significant Other,
From the useless to the useful but made useless,
(sometimes you just dun bear to use them)
i Keep!
my aunt always say: all those are my future dowry -.-''
Recently i've acquired quite a number of new gifts.
My soft-toy collection grew-
from my single tweety and JiJi to the now;
family of: nine!
never bought any softtoys for myself.
buying for yourself-
kinda defeats the purpose. Right?
needless to say, they each carry a story.
the competition is fierce.
ask me! which touches me the most.
you can never guess..

it maybe weird.
but hey! i sometimes feel:
A gift can blind.
the single moment of surprise can be a good bribe.
as if a sudden memory lost-
tantrums forgotten.
it can sometimes even cast the other person into a better light.
cant understand why am i saying all this.
Ahem~ maybe this few days.
recieved too many gifts. haha.
must always be wary of long arms of lian jia-ness:)

embarrassing but proud to say.
the best gifts recieved.
those that really touches.
will reduce one into tears if they're out sight or damaged.
Damaged.
i cna remember one well..
it 's a cake! haha.
After a hard day of working at bugis,
i was presented with a strawberry strudel.
(not from my boss of course -.-)
home and was just about to eat it when i accidently dropped;
the whole piece of the floor.
it was fruggy bad.
the effect was immediate.
a plumber would have given up hope on me.
can still remb how heart wrenching it was.
sobbing into the phone that my food's gone.
all would say it's only a strudel.. -.-
and i tsy! Ice Queen; reduced to such..
hah!!
that's what i call-
a gift that well appreciated that you mourn at its lost.
a gift that was really cherised.
i Do pity you.
all who have given or recieved gifts;
to not know such a fact.

Presenting someone with a gift is also an Art.
Apparently many sought after.
be it romantico or plain slobbish.
the ultimate goal is to surprise and touch.
can you remb once;
where the process of recieving a gift outdo the gift itself?
i have. up to date. Two.
i deemed best and unforgettable.
you can only guess:)

Gifts.
people love to get them.
sometimes the more the merrier.
sometimes the more expensive the merrier.
On the other hand,
the experience of recieving and losing it sometimes;
Outdo the gift itself.

footnote:
reflect!!>.<

2010-01-05T20:22:00.003+08:00

Sometimes,
even i myself am amazed..
how come i'm back to blogging so quickly?
mustnt be that a good news.. haha.
it's a shame.
for me to forget how nice it is to spell everything out.
helps to straighten the thoughts! dont you agree?
i know i know..
there're just Some stuff, not encouraged to be known by the public.
Skills! i hope i still have them.
a happy past-time i could say:)
so tsy!! smikes.

Friend-
1. a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.
2. a person who gives assistance.
I just got to realise,
how easy is it for us to forget the meaning behind such a simple word.
i always do believe quality over quantity;
and always pride myself for knowing the best and having the best.
not that others are unworthy of my time and attention.
Exlusiveness!
i thought them to know me very well;
and of course! the very few who are non-lian jia.
at least towards me.

Reciprocate-
1. to give, feel etc in return.
2.to make a return, as for something given.
I was told that many people do something,
befriend somebody, be nice to somebody;
as a starter for reciprocation-
to hope that someone will treat them with the special treatment they recieved.
i must remind all- this is: lian jia!! -.-

A few months back,
i befriended such a person.
as lian jia as a human can be.
as petty as tsy can be.
as moody as a poly tsy can be. laughs*
Do Not Laugh.
( now i wondered if he's my retribution-.-)
unpredictable, like the weather.
His mood varies till a scary extend.
even scarier then moi!
such a wide spectrum;
from the wonderful friend to an immediate stranger.
so alarming obvious and lethal;
that a single look can put a cockroach to death.
yup! some people call it PMS.
but hey.. didnt realise a guy can have that too.
i do joke- maybe he's helping me PMS. haha.

nobody know MoodSwings like tsy.
tsy; the Queen of Moodswings. remember those days?
but hey! i do feel guilty!! haha.
so i understand moodswings, PMS, bad mood.
i can tolerate; to a such a huge extend that it sometimes even surprises me.
after the storm, i will still welcome one back with open arms.
to forget and forgive whatever damage my poor mind and heart experienced.
One can say i'm so very DumbDumb.
i dont give an eye for an eye;
especially not when i consider you a friend.
have nothing much to be proud of;
just the fact that i take care what's mine>.< (so possessive!!)
cant help it though..
maybe i have recieved enlightenment.
when someone PMS, in a bad mood,
refuses to speak or just- act differently from the norm,
i'll just immediately realise something must be wrong-
why are all those negative energy directed towards me?
have i done, or said something that brought about this treatment.
Panic.Worries. i must sort it out and make it alright again.
appease. appease. appease.
i will- to coax a smile, trying to revive the situation.
not many were that immune to my 'charm'..
often enough,
i'll just try harder if it doesnt work out.
DumbDumb as i can be..
i believe sincerity touches:)

I still remember the first time our dear friend had a PMS..
OngQQ (SGH gf) and i were so worried.
trying in vain to appease that someone.

With increased frequency..
At the 'n' th time,
i was told my OngQQ ( dear SGH gf) that:
hack him la. he bad mood his problem.
do friends treat each other by feeding each other glass?
i was told he's not worthy for my care.
how could the PMS so obviously be just towards me?
when i could no doubt say; we shld be the best buds..
The brain without doubt, condemned.
but the heart cant bear not to care.
hey! it's my friend. how could i do this?

i lasted ~5months.
haha. true to be told;
this is the final straw..
i didnt appease him, or try to coax him human again.
dunno if i'll live to regret..
am SO known,
for doing stuff without a thought for reciprocation.
i like to make people smile,
i like those small actions of mine to make someone's day.
the thought of wishing you'll be as nice to me,
as i am to you never crosses my mind.
if it was in my poly days,
immediate codemn and discrimination has already taken place if you were just to even block my way-.-

Sometimes i do wonder.. why do i try so hard?
is it because i cant stand to see someone not converted by my care.
is it because i'm overly concern?
is it because he's too much a bad habit of mine?
or is it because i'm that non-lian jia..
i do not know:(

so here am i...
trying to suppress all my anxiety and worries.
blocking out all negative thoughts.
feigning that i dont harbour a hope..

true to told here:
i dun wish for reciprocation, i just hope for all to be fine and be back to normal.
back to the point which i remember and hold dear..
i maybe labelled Dumb.
but hey! dont anyone know;
the extent of Dumb-ness is directly proportional to how much i care for you...

footnote:
doing nothing is worse then going through the extreme dumb-ness to right the situation.

i need strength!!

2010-01-01T20:47:00.003+08:00

never a better time to return to my favourite past-time.

it's 2010 already!!
how fast!
a sentimental fool i am.
i was just going through all my previous postings,
trying to recall everything significant in 2009.
i was amazed at what i found.
alas!! so much i've forgotten.. >.<
quite an eventful year,
i Finally have the courage to bid my Bugis job good bye.
i am done with studying, for now.
i sent two of my Best Buds overseas.
and so much more..
in other words;
i survived 2009!! :)

New Year Resolutions;
i have none.
never been a fan of to-do list.
i'm more of the Bring-it-on-anytime kinda person.
may all just be well~

to all whom may be concerned.
yup! Miss Tan is surviving fine admist all the lian jia-ness.
i do Miss my usual circle of Slave and Aiwen though..
yes Slave as in you, jujie-.-
didnt get to crash at my GuGu's house that much these few months.
i still do call Everyday to make my presence known.
cant have her missing me!
she's my santuary.
after embracing all odds outside,
i know she'll be there to pick me up and nurse me back to health.
saranghae~

this new year!
i cant promise to buy the sun or charm the stars.
will constantly remember to dote on tsy:)
will uphold the virtue of non-lian jia-ness!
will try to prick my bad habits.
will continue admiring the art of human perfection.
will stay loyal to Yuan Chang>.<
all well at work and home..
and may the ONE surface!

Happy 2010:)

footnote:

kamsa for all the
love,
curses,
laugthers,
slaps,
advices,
worries and
conversations..

i treasure you so!
:)

in the coming year, qing duo duo zhi jiao wor..

P.S. due to the exclusiveness of this blog,
no appreciation is ever lian jia...

2009-11-22T16:52:00.001+08:00

yeah! i fixed it:)

2009-10-19T20:06:00.004+08:00

Habits!

we are have some no matter whether it's good or bad.
haha. some claim to hate to follow a routine,
while others feel safe doing the same stuff day in day out.

Me, am always known tobe very restless;
ever changing my mind.
one minute here, the other minute there.
i looked as if i must be continuously amused,
if not i'll just pai pai pi gu and leave.

Not true.
i am a Freaking habitual person;
i came to realise sometime ago.
yup!
The same routines,
The same route,
The same scent,
The same friends.
i can even buy the same pair of shoes 5times!!
argh~ that's just how bad it can get.

So you can see, i dun believe in Love at first sight.
haha. A silly notion,
but i only believe in Re Jiu Sheng Qing>.<
if a person stay long enough and
appear frequently in front of me enough.
a constant reminder to me that hey:
i'm in your life.
so much so that i'm so used to having him around.
till it became a habit.
one that you can suffer withdrawal symptoms from if it suddenly creased:(
i'm such a person.

but true to be told,
there's little people who will stick around that long.
and if you do, i'll Hug you!
hMM~
this bad habit of mine,
confuses me sometimes.
but! what to do.
am this way. haha.

2009-09-23T21:01:00.002+08:00

i did pledge not to be back till there's smth more interesting in my life;
other then logging forms, loading tubes- actually being a lab tech!
and so i succeeded. it took me almost 2 Frigging months!

all was okie, i survived quite well being the lab-tech.
haha. at least i dun have to bring work home.
had a great time eyeballing my attached eyecandy at work.
but hey! it's tsy's unwritten rule to stay away from attached guys:)
so no worries!

have been avoiding working at bugis for a month already.
excuses and excuses made my way when i know tiredness cant be the excuse anymore.
i'm sorry! but i cant help it.
after 5.5 days of work,
you would of course want a day off.
true to be told, i miss the place:(
tough choices to make.
haha. but sometimes just hack caring can make you feel so much better.
lian jia! i know.. so i cna never achieve it.

am still in contact with franco! of course.
long distance eh. aint we so hardworking.
to maintain good ties, work must be done.
do not be lazy!
i was told that a young hong konger was so captivated by me;
that he wants to be friends with me without even conversing with me.
laughs* what nonsense, but it's good to have another HK friend! :)

i'm so looking forward to the hunt of the perfect bag that will commence this sat.
wish me luck! hoped for a nice blackie.
but hey.. all that i see nice are either green or orange.
thought i would have satisfied my need for everything weird with a purple bag.
geesh!

i didnt forget my xiao zhong and kim bum!
giving them some space to breathe.
will look them up some other time; soon.
may new pictures! new shows surface. Quickly.

i can survive all the lian jia-ness.. >.<
dun anyone dare ask me again why i dun have a bf.
i'm happy being like this, even though i sometimes get too bored and too free.

stick to the earth!

2009-07-22T21:09:00.002+08:00

Che Song Hahm Nee Da..
i was gone for a month.

a quick update.
got a job!! SGH laboratory technologist:)
have been at work for weeks already.
at first, it was so dead boring and difficult.
i miss bugis at every breath.
but hey! now it seems so much better.
maybe i'm just used to it already.
haha. the work is still tough though.
the stupid slide-maker!
such a hassle.. always getting me into trouble.
Zzz... 2 weeks of the first three months is gone.
*swallow* just hope all will be fine.
to stay ot to leave after that;
only fate will tell:)
i only try my best!!

Ahem.. not only do i slought my guts out at SGH.
i still do Bugis.
not very into the work though..
i'm only more interested in the people.
Geesh!! sometimes, you just miss the weirdest stuff.
it's bloody tiring but hey!
i'm tsy...>.<

July's almost gone.
my friends are all leaving a little by little....

Sent off Aiwen to Hawaii not so long ago.
Heart wenching! but to a better future.
Go Girl:) i await you in Spore.
oh! if i'm lucky, i can meet you in tawian!!
*laughs* Meeting you in Hawaii is damn near impossible.
Unless my diamond turtle magically appear out of nowhere.
Hope you're adapting fine.
Keep Safe!!!

Next to sacrifice his freedom is alan.
heard he's going into army on friday.
that's like super fast.
totally forgot that he has to serve army till someone reminded me during our class outing.
LOL. gone will be the hair and in come a herbal chicken.
army boys dun use sunblock do they?
Ahem* maybe one can try using leaves..
in the jungle what~
guess it doesnt matter to him.
he aspires to be black:)
Constantly amazing me at the speed he get his license-.-
maybe he'll be qualified to drive a lorry at the next time i see him.
or maybe a crane.
Talented one maybe;
but please choose a safer transportation.
let the machine surround you and not you the machine.
i've seen far too many cases..
remember i work at a bike/car shop?
nevertheless.. i still need to complain!
havent sat his car before. haha.
all the best in army!:)
being smart around your peers is a must..
we dun wan to stand out too much dun we...
all kinds of people from god knows where goes to army too.
keep an eye out for those.
keep safe!

Lastly, franco is also to go..
back to his beloved hong kong to further his studies.
do try and be less lian jia there.
you can change the hong kongers:)
remember to take it easy at times.
we still value our hair dun we?

so that somehow concludes it...
so here am i again;
trying to sleep early everyday in prep for work.
5.30am everyday is no joke.
add on the hours at bugis.i must be a superwoman!!

Short-term goal: rid of eyebags and dark circles.
Long-term goal: my kind-of-handsome Young Doctors please step forward!!
* saw one at the mask-fitting session. Oh my! SGH dun disappoint.
even with the mask on, i can already spot him. can you imagine him without it.
ultimate! at most 26:) and he's so my kind!!*

To a restful night!

remember to breathe everyone>.<

footnote: i still adore my kim bum!
am searching high and low for the samsung phone he advertised.

2009-06-22T22:56:00.002+08:00

So Healthy for the Soul Humans:)

i sometimes do secretly thinks that:

it's a pleasure seeing a loved one dolling himself up; preparing for a new day.

I regretted not having any new Yuan Chang's pictures.

he's MiA-ing due to his stageplay.

The news; all repetitons. cant wait for his new idol drama.

2009-06-22T22:16:00.002+08:00

i was told that i was gone for long.
i totally forgot about the time while trying to live.
haha. all was well!!

went for the first interview in my life.
yup! dun ask me how exactly have i landed at my 'jobs' without going through interviews.
LOL. i dun exactly know.
i just happen to clinch the deal! >.<
at an almost there age of 20,
with no interview experience;
nobody would believe.
with Nil background knowledge;
i can only imagine what an interview will be like.
not a tough one.
(Anyhow-think Queen) remb?
so yup! went through it.
it was considered alright;
main problem-
would i get the job?
not particularly very interested in that company.
the Lab looks eeire and dead.
So So much different from AH.
the final decision; leave it to Fate!

had a chicken pox scare recently.
i am a grateful chicken pox Noob:)
i am So times Ten going to get vaccinated against it.
once i recover from my unknown rashes.
The rashes- made me afraid to show my legs.
long pants and tights everyday.
yup.. it's super HOT!
for the time being;
i'll just treat it as a 'sunblock',
to keep my legs fair of course!
you know my Special interest in anything Fair.

The GSS is here.
With or Without it;
i still shop. so ditto!
just the right time for branded stuff shopping.
The insane weather reminded me that it's summer.
Floaty dresses, slippers, singlets!
but nay.. i'm currently still stuck in the wintery mode.
Think: black tights.
the so-In evian blue that is seen everywhere now is So not for me;
much less white dresses.
BUT! i do love the Hats^.^
Boys over flowers really got to me. Big!
Bought one of course!
cant wait to wear it..

As for my newly acclaimed new language.
Erm~ not much time to practice.
Got to work you know.... *blush*
heyheyhey.. i am still passionate about it!
just wait and see!

Footnote: it's back to slogging my arse off for the next few days.
i just saw the ad for next week's bai wan da ge xing on channel whatever.
the one with my Joe on it- that's like a million years ago.
but nevertheless; i'll be punctual.
i miss Yuan Chang!
he's gone for soo long. for that musical.
btw, he had just celebrated his birthday:)
and i do happen to realise..
my pretty boys are all Mid Year babies.
Kim Bum and Joe!
aka just like me.. is it fated or what?

2009-06-06T01:08:00.004+08:00

Boys over flowers!:)

who says that the lead; Lee Min Ho ( in black collar) is not handsome.

Dont bee bias against curly hair.

in his original state as shown here;

we can see the perfecto side view.

what a nose! i love*

we can clearly see the perfecto* side view!

Hyun Joong is white tee is looks like a cross of Wu Zun and Zhang Dong Liang.

Look carefully:

there's a Wu Zun feel but Dong Liang's eyes!

Smirks*

Swoon!!

what a nose.

love the eyes. not to say those angular face.

lean bodies. didnt you see?

hey! the mysterious guy in the previous post is actually KIM BUM!

it's so super fated. haha

this is the the so call xi men in boys over flowers

very young nia; 19 years old.
fell for his smile. wonderful*

2009-06-06T00:32:00.002+08:00

i was gone for so long.
have been busy;
shuttering through life.

gone through graduation..
it was great, much better minus the sun.
i would kill to have it at night.
romantic! >.<
so yup! i'm so officially a diploma holder.
achieved through great pains though.
i can So remb the numerous practical datasheets and OH!
the mugging at starbucks!
I PULLED THROUGH!
graduation doesnt equates a new carefree life without books.
have to start hunting for a permanent job;
sans bugis street of course!
i'm soo determined to leave there.
haha. sent out my resume to all the different organizations.
still not yet a response?
how long will it take.. gessh*
dun make me wait too long.
*cold feet*
i'm so anxious, so anxious i will be.
till the day i land on my new job.
wish me luck!!! :)

as i've said.
busy shuttering through life.
worked and of course i play.
watched all of the korean boys over flowers le:))
i could just swoon with overintoxicated handsome-ness.
i cramped it all in;
within 4days. I'm fast!
the eyecandies are *i cant describe*
personally prefer Kim Bum; aka the xi men/ Yi Hoon i think.
Hyun Joong is good too!
so is the lead actor.
Put their gorgeous looks aside,
their 'costumes' are fantastic!
damn nice!
plus their lanky bodies. Perfecto*
sad to say, none of them has an impressive 6pecs to boot.
but hey! i'm not into the muscular types>.<
i like my man lean;
just like xiao zhong and the flower boys.
it took me so long to put a word to their costumes.
ROMANTIC is it!
is the romantic wind~~
cant help but always wonder who sponsered their wardrobe.
CARS!
the cars in the set are to die for.
LOTUS: white, yellow, red.
3 freaking lotus on the streets of korea.
i haven seen one in spore yet. it's that rare and exclusive.
Ferrari: white. OMG~
drove by the Gu Jun Pyo's sister.
a white ferrari, who would have thought about that?
it suits the character.
elegant, refined, expensive, fiery but still pure.
it speaks a thousand words!
boys over flowers really beat the zhang dong liang's;
wei xiao pasta de mercedes SLR.
it's heaven and earth!
haha. the music is heart-wrenching too.
especially: because' i'm stupid and twilight tears.
reduced me into a watery mess!
so addicted i am. i went to buy both the OST!
haha. i do support original when they're worth supporting.
am waiting so patiently to buy the complete set of DVD.
yup! i got to show my future generation,
this is mummy's generation of idol drama and handsome guys.
hmm.. having watched the show in korean with only english subtitle.
i picked up a new hobby!
learning to speak korean.
in comes the two new korean-english dictionaries to add to my longman.
it's so tough.
the korean characters put down the chinese idoms.
when will i master it?
i know not.. but t least it gives me smth to learn.
too many months without school rots the brain:)

enough of boys over flowers.
was out with a couple of my friends recently.
Shopping! haha.
did i mention that i had no so long ago,
turned 20?
i am no longer a teenager. regrets*
didnt get to cut cake this year.
but it's ok! >.<

on a personal level.
i think i'm getting more particular about a certain sensitive topic.
i found out not long ago-
i really do like my man: fair.
i just dunno why!!
is it because my idols and eyecandies are fair?
i think fair eyecandies look much better.
on every aspect!
*pondering*

footnote: am hard at work finding a new job while sustaining the current one.

Kamsa to all my friends and loved ones for their endless care and concern for the past year:)
wouldnt have make it through without all of you.
Qing Duo Duo Zhi Jiao:)

2009-05-15T01:08:00.002+08:00

hello:)
i'm back. got an off day tmr.
it's pick up graduation gown day.
i'm a happy girl, off day! >.<
everything was fine at work.
the usual i would say.
nth i couldnt handle.
when the going gets tough at work,
the tough just hack care! LOL.

my friends:
from thailand, back from thailand.
from hk, back from hk.
couldnt ask for more.
all safe and sound from the horrible swine flu.
i'm glad!!

finally bought the crystal crystal thing to hang on my phone.
the cheaper kind of course!
looks kinda china; but may it works!!

pardon me, but my blog's song is still under construction.
thank YOU chee yong for helping:)
BIG SMILE!

am currently in a buying storybooks craze.
someone please tear me away from harries!!
couldnt get enough of the vampires:)
hey. i still love my idol dramas..

footnote: i wanna go shopping please. Yawn!

2009-05-04T01:40:00.001+08:00

found this eyecandy somewhere;

but i dunno his name.

dark hair- checked!

fair skin- checked!

sharp nose- checked!

big eyes- checked!

P.S i'm still loyal to my yuan chang:)

2009-05-04T01:19:00.002+08:00

mental strain and physical exhaustion stopped me from updating.
was up to my neck with work!
finally an offday tmr:)
all smiles. it will be a Me day,
with nobody else of course!
countless of stuff to do,
to relax, to feel human again..
oh! and it has been ages since i last visited my GuGu.
i do miss Home.
how do i do it all in 12 hours?
Geesh! another tiring day.
how i wish for a 2-day-back-to-back off days.

work was fine; the usual.
with countless new stuff.
the weird ones, the lazy ones.
couldnt be bothered with them thought,
they just come and go.
poor shop will be undergoing renovation soon.
for more displays, less empty spaces.
-.- it will be so squashed!
they just dont listen..
nothing interesting happened at work these few days.
put it all behind me.
stashed it all deep into the closet,
never to surface again:)

on a whole, a hectic worklife;
makes me countdown so pathetically to my next off day.
On my Offday i wish for time to stop.
one pay day and the next.
Time just flies..
maybe one shld be grateful.
to be able to work 'carefreely' in a non-permanent job.
couldnt care less; is sometimes not a problem.
graduation day will be here very soon.
and alas! a permanent job to clinched.
it will be so tough.
but i guess i will still manage.
i most likely will take my own sweet time.
actually i see no hurry.
hey! you have the rest of your life to work.
this job that job; it makes no difference to me i guess.
yup! i'm the carefree soul.
but ahem~ maybe the money part is a problem.
but i will think about it only when i reach there.
saving is a must.
but dont be too harsh on yourself>.<
*spoken like the true spendthrift*

everyone out there.
are you just as fine as me?
true to be told,
i do conjour up what i think my SP mates are doing.
talking about a Fine imagination. LOL.

footnote:
havent paint my nails since i dunno when.
am so into covered shoes recently.
damn the bugis street management for changing the street's lights.
gone were the dimly lit street.
i want my romantic street back.
it spells more danger.

In my head: Digging your scene; Paris Match

2009-04-21T00:50:00.002+08:00

I may still not know what i want to be when i grow up,
but i do know that someday i want to live in a house filled with my books
and travel souvenirs. And the walls that arent covered in bookshelves
will be covered with photos of my family and friends.
when i leave the house i will be going to a job i love,
and i'll return to a person i love.
So, that's the dream i'm working on..

:)

2009-04-20T00:46:00.001+08:00

i am reminding myself to always look on the bright side of life>.<

aint the fruits so nice?

2009-04-17T01:24:00.002+08:00

am going to work for a week straight again.
i cant even smell when my next day:(

Listen to Lee Hom's new album.
it's really good.
Thou love soulful singing >.<

2009-04-13T00:47:00.003+08:00

Yuan Chang is still as busy.

with a new hair cut. shorter a fringe!

make his face looks rounder i think.. hmm.

expressing his love for iPhone,

hope he's not promoting it.

Luve the jacket and the gold phone though.

At the YSL event. Looking great with the scarf.

need i say more?
i like fair people, but the right hair colour is important.
if you know nuts, stay black:)

In yellow!!

2009-04-04T01:34:00.002+08:00

All for nothing, nothing for all.

another reason to smile:)

Kim Hyun Joong!! *wink wink aiwen*

but i'm still nuts over yuan chang..

2009-04-04T00:43:00.002+08:00

i need to reflect.

as all of you know, i know this flexor yong.
yup.. i thought he's different from the rest;
thus suitable to be a friend for keep.
you know like my freshbox white chicken ancient kor kor.
but alas!! all not true. i found out the hard way of course.

The day when he so stupidly;
openly ask me out in front of everyone.
we had the last conversation on the phone.
and he was gone.
i know i know...
firstly, he really dunno me.
if you ask me in front of all those bugis lians.
of course i will reject you,
you would have thought of that..
so yup! lost your pride right?
but hey!! anyine who knew me well knows that i dun go out with just any other people.
and i only knew him for like a week!
so of course i'm not going-.-
i barely know him.
secondly, if i agreed..
wont i have openly agreed there's smth going on?
hello!>?
gossip flies in bugis street.
you could have known better.

went on OFF day of course without anyone knowing.
maybe pissed off i know not.
but hey! the least you could do is to sms and ask after your friend.
he didnt so i guess, not a good sign.
back to work,
gone were the hellos, have you eaten.
strangers we became Again.
not that i want to say..
but i dunno why;
i just feel the bitterness from him.
maybe i think too much.
but he did stared at me so fiercely..
at time, when i ran out of shop to admire eyecandies,
i took a step back; resisting.
can help feeling guilty and sad for evoking the bitterness in him.
but aiwen's: who is he to you,
if he cares etc, he would jolly well contact you and be present.

Next, i witnessed whistling at ah lians.
handphone number exchanging hands.
and oh my!!
after closing.
saw him taking off with a ah lian!!
that explains the MIA-ing.
i was stunned. completely..
really cant believe i can see someone so wrongly.
hey!! i was right with white chicken.
i thought he wont be that far apart too.
but apparently i was wrong.
and worse of all...
it seems that the flexor gang knows.
and oh well, started to give me..
i know your dirty naughty secret looks again.
i was like oh my~

to conclude,
i really see him wrongly.
but luckily for me to know it before he became a friend;
like what white chicken is to me.
haha. i know it's dumb.
but somehow, i hope what i've witnessed are all Wrong.
the thing is-
if i can overlook your education, nationality and whatsoever;
and accept you as a friend.
it means that there's smth i really see in you.
aka machiam white chicken.
and you let me down, so drastically.
so hard to accept. haha.
i'm not xiao qi.
i have no qi.
i'm selfish of what's mine.
if i'm out with gfs or whoever,
i dread them smsing other people in my sight.
and if you're interested in me-
and you're MIA for 3 days,
or i even see you baiting other girls,
you're history.
yup!! i'm that selfish >.<
i cant help it though..
i must be weary of all the world's lian jia-ness.
so he broke all the 'rules' of mine.
what to do?
another thing..
i was 1/3 bu shuang that i so-call lose to those typical ah lians.
but mr chan says:
there's no need for our ding ding da ming de tsy be inferior to those ah lians.
his exact words: this guy has no patience for you,
so he's seeking the easy way out- ah lians.
a perfect match, his lost, your gain you see.
i was Oh so right~

tsy promise to:
wake up from my misery of believing in the wrong kind of people.
i will try to accept reality that i really see wrongly.
i will also remb to wind back time and be a stranger to this bu xiao zi. LOL.
i will open my eyes wider he next time when i want to meet a friend for keep.
and i will continue my eyecandy craze:)

i was lucky that he's far from what i like in a guy.
haha. can you imagine what a disaster it will be if he's like the kind i like?
oh my tian~ exactly.

for the time being,
i'll stick to my girls, mamasan, white chicken and eyecandies.
one less a friend does no harm!:)

2009-03-30T13:08:00.002+08:00

a stranger smsed me the other day.
i was dead shocked. and needless to say:
super curious at how he got my number.
true to be told, he dont want to say.
so evil me tried to be nicer to coax an answer from you.
tsktsk* if not you think i would answer your questions?
the feeling of my much guarded privacy gone;
and alas! landed into the hands of someone working at bugis is like shit.
and worse of all,
i was betrayed be a hollow-headed ah lian from my shop.
you should know my temper well enough.
even though i didnt say anything,
doesnt mean i forgot about it.
even though i didnt check,
doesnt mean i dont know who.
hey!! i'm just waiting for the right moment to slaughter you.
sigh* stupid people.
even without me checking or dropping a bomb.
aiwen will. white chicken will. allen will.
just what a hollow-head will do.
so much for a 5min attention from him.
hello????

back to the main topic,
my asking of the person's identity was fruitless.
and not mcuh longer i got irritated and called the person.
i can almost guess who is it.
all this probing was just to give you a chance to tell you who are you-.-
you just simply dun get it.
irritated as tsy can get,
i told nameless i dont talk to strangers. LOL.
apparently he got a shock and gave up.
of course that cant be happening since i still dont know your name.
so as evil as i can;
i tried to bait him. LOL.
at least namless is smart enough to not fall for it.
Ahem!!
to this i must salute Aiwen.
we came up with a plan to identify nameless..
you should know me well;
i cant rest till i know the conclusion.
so we did this......

i was so amazed and needless to say; damn proud of it.
it may sound childish etc.. but hey it works!!
and it was a interesting way to get back a nameless..
you know what?
actually i wanted to post a notice for sales assistant with nameless' number and stick it all aound bugis. LOL.
who ask you to mess with me? haha.
but aiwen's paln was soo much better.
aiwen smsed what nameless smsed me;
with her brother's phone of course!!
he was soo damn confused.
logically speaking.,
normal people will be like:
what the hell, someone's interested in me or is simply harassing me.
nameless will feel that way too.
we played on that..
yup!! we smsed what he smsed me back to him.
nameless couldnt take it anymore and called.
hey! we didnt pick up of course.
then later he got smart and replied my famous:
i dont talk to strangers.
we were like, at least he's smart.
after a good laugh and tons of fun.
we decide to call him.
a conference call of course!!
with aiwen's brother's number;
with aiwen in background listening and me talking to him.
stressed! i was used to friends settling stuff for me.
but i was almost certain i know him,
so yar, i talked to him.
i asked him who is he.
he was like: why are you so funny,
you called me and ask me who am i.
i was like: i'm learning from you and hung up.
later....
when he called outof confusion again.
we picked up.
this time with aiwen talking to him.
and me in the background. LOL.
we know that listening to an entirely different voice will confuse the brain out of him.
we did just that!
aiwen talked to him.
identified herself as my friend etc..
asked if he want to get to know him etc....
of course he admitted to everything;
except tellign us his identity.
BUT! under aiwen's endless questions;
he gave himself away.
guess what, is the flexor person-.-
this is not all. without him knowing i'm listening to the conversation,
aiwen continued to bomb him with questions.
why dont you identify yourself to me etc,
she even teached him what to do next.
haha. sad to say,
he just wont tell us who gave him my number.
but nvm, we dont need him to say.
we can check it out ourselves.

he really listen to aiwen and did as he was told.
told me who he is and even called.
not afraid, i was prepared.
with aiwen in the background too.
hey!! you know how i am,
i need reinforcements,
somemore ir's with a total stranger-.-''
yup!! so we conversed. for a few days already.
but nay.. nothing la.
just that we came to a conclusion that he's a very lonely etc.
it's hard to make friends at bugis so yar,
i shall be your friend.
but hey! want to know me?
not so easy, even white chicken cannot succeed.
what makes you think you can?
and he did soo much more and was soo much better.
really! not many people know, not even aiwen.
but i've since told her.
even if i'm becoming friends with him,
i dont forget relality.
i dont worship the ground he walks;
unlike those ah lians.
just talking terms and abit nicer.
but hey!! tsy posion and suan-ness is a must!
because i know,
as aiwen helped me put into words:
he's not my future,
have or dont have him also nvm.
just be friends, a very different person so worth knowing.
broadens your horizons too.
and anyway, talking to you on the phone at the wee hours doesnt mean anything.
hello.. i talk to girls, mamasan and white chicken at ungodly hours too-.-''
we shall see~~ a damn loong way to go.

oh yar..
not forgetting that i did drag white chicken into the picture too.
i told him some crazy people stalking me.
he was ___ this pissed.
even asked me to threaten him a police report.
he even called to check on the situation.
i was glad:)
cant wait for him to work at bugis street freshbox again.
i will dangle him in front of the flexor person.
i am evil!!!
but hey.., doesnt hurt to bring across the msg: dont mess with me,
i've got back-up. and also,
i think it'll bring him to his place that:
actually i've got other people no need you.
LOL.

footnote:
people from bugis street are not my cup of tea,
so no need to treat them so nice.

that's all......

2009-03-30T12:34:00.002+08:00

time flies.
it's just so quick,
yet another week is gone.
aw man!! what to do?
it was maddness.
i was so super busy,
dont even have the 'feeling' for shopping on my Off days.
LOL. i just want a nice massage;
and of course! an eyecandy update.
i do miss my yuan chang! :)
things happened and were once again resloved without manslaughter at bugis.
ahem!! when the boss gets mad,
everyone is a Goner.
i can only stay Pissed for _ this long.
my 'forgiving' nature always got the better of me.
Hey!! i'm aint kidding,
you must off course know me well and long enough for that special treatment.
oh yah! just confirmed my attendence for the Graduation.
i'm going!!:)
it's going to be interesting.
heard that we will be together with the engineering people.
tsktsk* of everyone else-.-

On the human me on the whole.
trying to regain my shopping craze.
but first i must get over massage. LOL.
i relax at a different level as those ah lians.
and true to be told, they were dead shocked when i told them.
tsktsk*
yup! i do wonder what's going on in the lives of fellow course mates.
no news no nothing.
must be in Bliss. Thou shall not disturb them.
See Yar at Graduation.
haha. but i do keep contact with Erm.. 3 of them?
the lian jia-ness is SCARY!!
since i work so hard,
i of course do pamper myself.
eyecandy look-out is a must..
saw a few worth-looking while working.
needless to say not sporeans.
i like fair fair de!! with a healthy pinkish glow is a Plus.
and even better; with the correct brown hair.
sad to say, you must be asian.
copyright from aiwen: in 1000ang mohs, 999 are arses.
so you get what i mean? LOL.
and when i spot my kind of things,
i admire openly;
hack what my neighbours at bugis are saying.
my brother just celebrated his birthday recently.
he even had the face to sms him this:
today is your korean brother's birthday.
he is officially 18, 78kg,184cm and getting;
more and more handsome day by day..
i was like -.-'''''
184cm!! unfair, i'm so short..
but i'm still happy for him; taller then Alan wor.
LOL. but nay, too dark so not my cup of tea.

went out with mamasan the other day.
we planned nothing.
and with me without the feeling of shopping;
there's literally nothing to do.
so we did my favourite thing.
we stone at starbucks.
yup! it was my kind of relaxation.
nice cup of drink. music. nothing to do.
just sit and look and do nothing.
it is to me a very 'interesting' thing to do.
no need to use the brain that much,
but i still get entertained.
i would be wondering about the day of the strangers around me and such.
simply wonderful.
imagination is such a wonderful companion>.<
anyway, mamasan maybe foreign to such activity,
so he did get a little bored.
but hey! i'm teaching you how to enjoy life.

life's just like that..
going back to the copy and paste kind of hypertension inducing working life tmr.
wish me Luck.

footnote: the Lee Hom duet with another girl called:
ling yi ke tian tang is super nice.
go check it out..

2009-03-20T22:44:00.002+08:00

promised to update on Flexor's A.yong
yup! same name as me.
dun call me that anymore;
but it's interesting.
ahem!

anyhow!!
like that lo.
went to work on wed spotting him outside de shop.
overheard flexor auntie saying:
ney.. lai liao lai liao. -.-''
apparently it was also the aftermath of getting results.
was super high.
just grabbed onto allen and told him the good news.
apparently he looked over witnessing the joy.
tsktsk*
all was well.
in the midst of my pathetic day of selling sticker,
and Flexor's busy day of selling bermudas.
smth happened.
i was wallowing in my misery of a bad sales day,
and was cursing Flexor for their triumph.
during break time, he just happen to be looking into my sight.
and talked to me;
was it have you eaten etc.. (in chinese, for aiwen's understanding).
i was like no (sad face) going to die already. LOL.
no more approaches sighted.
towards the end of the day,
when i happend to voice my thoughts out loud if it's 10pm already,
he happened to look in and shrugged shoulders touch ears.
haha. my memory is super good:)
so if you offend me, be careful........
at the last few minutes,
i saw 2 non-sporeans girl came looking for him.
Da Qing Ma Qiao, it seems to be.
hitting and grabbing. not my kinda stuff.
of course i'm evil.
i just sat there and looked at them. LOL.
i simply just stared.
it's just your luck to let me saw it.
hot property eh? tsktsk.
hopeless romantic i am;
i prefer my Him with only eyes for me.
we shall see!!

escaped confrontation by acting Gong.
was this _ close.
already planned what am i going to do if it happens:)
tsy is good, what can you do?
allen has always been nice,
protecting the less wild of his staff;
aiwen and i.
me namely from white chicken aka Freshbox Useless Kor.
i can still remember.....
so guess he's just as protective as he always is against Flexor Yong.
haha. interesting to see one trying to work past allen.
LOL. guts are a Must; but i dun think he has any. haha.

however,
i must say.. i really do appreciate someone with a good taste in my kind of music.
so when i first discovered him playing my kind of songs.
i was like dead shocked!!
overheard some uncle asking him if he know how to listen to those english songs..
To me;
i seriously dont discriminate people who're not highly educated.
i think he's educated.
but being a malaysian, it maybe in chinese or malay i know not.
but in my fairytale.
i think it's super nice if...
there' s this one person who dont really understand english.
but still play those english songs cause you fancy them.
Nice right!? swoon instantly... i like!
but it's too good to be true.

this encounter with flexor yong really is something worth learning.
this shows that people in this world still have, as aiwen said: zi zhi zi ming or smth..
and that people working in bugis may not be that bad.
and ah beng dont really always like ah lian.

footnote: i still think that a guy still got to do what a guy shld do.

My kind of songs:
Michael learns to rock
i'll remb you
Only love
Breathless
How to save a life
Cry on my shoulder
Because you loved me
All or nothing at all
Here without you.

didnt i told you i'm a hopeless romantic.
if what there's a way..
i seriously do think music is a good way of courting.
muhahaha! but it's too good to be true. i know i know....
so long. cant wait to see how aiwen is going to finish him tmr. Lalalal~

2009-03-20T22:08:00.002+08:00

many people i knew have already gotten NUS reply.
living on the edge currently.
probability is very Low,
but still i pray for a miracle>.<
we shall see how...
backup plans if That did not go well;
is too many.
not the very best, but they'll still do.
*cross my fingers*
gotten back the last Poly results ever.
didnt hope for much, just prayed that FYP is ok.
everything's fine.
improvements sighted. Contentment!!

was out shopping today.
with Georgina of course!!
bought tons of stuff.
shld be currently feeling guilty right now.
but after slaving my blood pressure off these days,
i deserve a Huge Treat! :)
In love with my purchases..
i just need new shoes and a fab Bag.
a tough one you see..
the shoes that caught my eyes recently are liliac!
and damn... doesnt go really well with tsy le.
dun you think so? Zzz..
just in love with that colour now.
Bags are the worse.
so many ugly ones on the streets.
the ones worth having are expensive.
not the branded couture kinds,
just normal ones which caught my eye;
expensive for poor me!
rest assure. i wont buy it:)
fanastic day it was.
great time eating..
great time shopping..
and did i mention the eyecandies?
3 of them!!! my tian...
on our tiny red dot, three of them is a frigging miracle.
but i guess they aint sporean.
need i say more?
The first was spotted at ngee ann city:)
eyes super huge. i like!!
handsome but georgina say too thin -.-''
and he Did Look At Us.
even though he has a girlfriend by the side.
i have a bad habit, if there is a eyecandy;
i really really Look de LOOK. lol.
maybe i did it too obvious or smth..
the second one was spotted at bugis Rockery! :)
a Jappy. handsome handsome. but the skin not very good though.
red pactches here and there, maybe due to singapore's weather.
sad to say, a rather mature looking lady was with him;\
elder sis or gf, i know not. anyhow!
last was spotted at bugis money changer, ang moh!:)
we saw him yet again on the train ride home.
talk about fate. LOL. sunburnt beach boy.
a feast for the eyes indeed.
everything was well. EXCEPT!
wanted to show georgina F guy.
but alas! he wasnt spotted anywhere.
duh~ we walked past two times.
not so Qiao, both times in the toilet.
maybe he's just into hiding, somewhere else or;
OFF! damn.. a precious comment gone.
tsktsk!

footnote: it seems that i'm working with aiwen tmr.
cant wait:)

2009-03-12T22:31:00.004+08:00

YUAN CHANG! :)

can finally have my long-awaited fix. YUM*

apparently TKA is going to be aired in mainland china soon.

so he and Danson is up for prescon etc..

looking good there>.<

it really does take a TING NOSE to carry off those shades.

nice hair! i cant help repeating myself..
when will i meet someone with such hair and a caveman-ness to match mine?

perfecto!!

not forgetting his musical is still on show in china.
am really into the hoodie look these days.
have the feeling of Home:)

can we replace that with a drumset please?
a piano will do too.
damn!! piano reminds me of kenji wu! LOL.

just tell me what's there not to like about fair guys?
they look Cleaner!! >.<
the right hair colour would prevent you from looking;
too washed out or anaemic.

2009-03-12T21:40:00.003+08:00

a break from the street. finally!
yup.. i'm surviving fine without school.
it may seems aimless at times,
but! i'm super Busy!!
didnt heard much from SP-mates since mila's sis's wedding.
wasnt unexpected though.
tsktsk*

working has been well,
stressful but interesting!
like a broken record..
the economy is like crap.
a hard time to do sales.
when itt's bad it really gets back.
bosses do get crazy and beside themselves.
missles everywhere.
one has to be extra careful..
and did i mention we are expanding?
he took up the boon lay pasa malam.
i was there once and dread it.
really!! alot of the DARKS.
they outnumbered the whites by the dozens.
and the smell. gosh!
really wonder how can one be craving for pasa malam food
after sniffing the fried food smell for soo many hours.
i hate it.
true to be told,
i live the nearest to the pasa malam;
but alas! he didnt 'order' me to work there.
i was _____ this glad.
but hey! bugis aint that good too.
super stressful.
especially when allen starts to get mean.

working these days have just became more interesting.
i have a story to share....

There is this one Flexor guy; F.
who is considered a newbie in bugis while compared to aiwen and i.
in his early 20s though.
came to work at flexor with an unsightly moustache.
(aiwen, you remember which one? the skinny one whom we thought is a malaysian?)
yup!! that's him.
since prodesign is unluckily sandwiched between two Flexor shops,
it is just normal for their workers to walk from one shop to the other.
if you know me..
i multitask very well; especially at work.
i always keep an eye on the main door despite of what i was doing.
i began to notice this weird person who like to stroll uo and down between the 2 shops.
i was like: oh well.. nth wrong.
but hey!! why would you need to look into my shop and stare throughout your walk from one shop to the other.
that i dont understand.
i still remember commenting them treating the aisle as the runway-.-
logically speaking, it could either be KPO or he's just trying to catch a glimpse of the prodesign's ah lians... Ahem! excluding me of course.
So yar....
one fine day, this joyce from my shop decided to ask a fellow Flexor member about this werid F. and the answer really shocked them. LOL.
this buddy claimed that this F likes the cool person in prodesign,
always look in to see if she's working etc..
*and sad to say, the ah lians in my shop aint cool, and that;s left with poor Me-.-
with this juciy bit, joyce went crazy and went to confront F-
alas! F says that he likes cool girls etc... and Bang! form rumor to the truth.
damn!! allen was there.
he told the KPO-girls not to tell me;
but if course they dont listen.
and in fact if i forgot to mention..
allen already know it for some time already.
F even tried getting the usual info from allen.
god bless allen's soul.
he told F to ask me himself.
to that i'm gald!! it will never happen. WAHAHAHA~
so yar.. that's that. life still goes on.
everyone became more cautious about their surroundings of course!

one may be wondering what's the cool sy doing with this fact.
ahem! i looked of course.
while.. should i say without the moustache and a new hair cut and newly dyed black hair;
he does look better now.
kept a lookout on the catwalks past my shop;
it really does happens! zzZ....
overheard a few conversations of him discussing to talk to me after work.
but i'm confident that it wouldnt happen.
hey!! i'm too fierce.. you wont want to experience the bitter outcome.
haha. too evil on the mortal's soul.
but if it really happens, this F has got guts; to that i must admit.
this rumor is flying high at my shop.
constantly reminded of It.
worse of all this guy is commenly known as Ah Yong.
bloody hell-.- almost name as me.
the girls of course started calling me Xiao Yong.
i was like ^%^$*

At the street;
it takes a certain kind of people not to be attracted to ah lians.
and much less a more endangered one to notice the so out-of-place me.
good taste good taste. *i'm shameless*
anyhow!! i really do wonder why am i considered cool.
i rarely have friends there and i seldom talk to neighbours.
i totally treat Flexor as Air.
i only smile to my customers.
and is most of the time; expressionless.
with that (Some may say) stuck up look; very kampa.
what i wore to work is allowed to be seen in orchard.
maybe it's because of all of that?
so Qi Guai!!

the ah lians at my shop are of course stunned at why is it me..
and not the more popular Perlyn.
but anyhow; she's trying very hard to chat up a storm with F these days.
just dun understand. if you like, you can have it..
people at Bugis are Lian Jia.
apparently there're not like us,
like one at a time.
they target a few to see which ones is successful.
so F is be the same too. cause i saw!
to that, not very nice~TSKTSK!

in conclusion,
i think this F person has already switched target.
it's no longer me.
hopefully the rumor will die out soon.
cant help feeing abit sad though. shit!
i'm weird.
but if things do happen i will have my verbal diarrhoea again.
but i must say:
i'm still loyal to my Yuan Chang:):)

2009-02-26T00:10:00.002+08:00

unoffically graduated!
happy to get rid of all the exams and mugging.
i will miss it, someday.. not now though.
no devoted loyalty to SP. so nth much to miss;
the people i'll yearn :(
hard to come by.
hard to talk.
hard to meet up.
the compasses' needle sets us apart.
withdrawal symptoms are sure to appear.
literally still two more chances to meet.
mila's sister's wedding and the grad day.
*cross my fingers*
that we all will be going.
then it'll be up to fate.
from the situation,
it would take a miracle or two.

it cannot be medicated,
or tricked into dissolution..
no forum to track on the lastest on-goings.
no pictures to make sure you're well.
no youtube videos for a pretence presence.
imagination can only be based on memories.
holy cow~
when the '2 chances left to meet' really ends,
i guess i would have more to feel.
turn the clock upside down please...

After the exam,
it's such a loser to go home early despite all the;
soo many late nights and lack of sleep.
it's let your hair down and slack to your heart's content.
haha. went to Minds cafe.
it was good. but the noise is irritating.
went for dinner and the regular after dinner walk to raffles.
had a moonlight picnic too!
babysister desmond treated us all to this wonderful chicken pie.
stuffed it all down despite being so full.
cant resist an excuse to celebrate.
the River is so-so in the night.
so we went again this evening.
entirely different. a pleasant change.
the officeworkers leaving the CBD after work.
the occassional ang-moh joggers.
all the way we sat in almost silence till the sun really set.
did i mentioned there was a rainbow?
>.< didnt see much rainbows even at a ripe age of 20.
i was of course dumbstruck.
brightens up your day instantly.
dont know about you.
it made me feel the day's activity and stress and whatever unpleasant;
are all worthwhile. hey! heaven knows..
it's praising you! haha.
by the way.. i was really hardworking today.
3/4 of it is for other people's stuff.
went to job agencies.
wasnt in a hurry, but still tagged alone.
it's interesting! LOL.
haven been to an interview despite having worked for soo long.
teleported to chinatown for an afternoon of:
cheapest HK tour deal.
yup! every agency we went. so damn tiring.
i could memorise all the hotels and possible prices.
so dun you dare to cheat me.
headache heacache.
and all the old uncles.. *speechless*
chatted up a storm at marina.
intelligent conversations of course.
You will be amazed at what's going on in my mind.
haha. anyhow! i've evolved :)

a few cents;
were not given much thought in my daily life.
even though i know it's still money.
i was lucky!
met up with the most lovely of all coins on tuesday>.<
if only i coould kidnap the bus driver and not pay the fare.
True to be told;
i was _______________....
this not bear to use it.
haha. i know i know.
a mountain out of a molehill.
oh well! you dont know me, so you dont know.
i may very well be crazy,
but it was very touching.. *smile*
and i meant it.

assumptions, think too much.
i know i know. but i cant help it.
i'm caveman in nature.
small gestures spells great volume.
i assume, knowing the reality..
so i will be well.
Rarely will people read my blog.
so.. i think i'm save from the poachers.
minus all my imagination anf photoshopping,
at least this sweetens up the end of poly life.
so i will be well..

anyhow! back to making money tmr.
work hard shi yong.
Good luck to all job-seekers.
i am your rival too!
secondary school imran described me as fairer and chubby today.
was like Ahhh~
i'm only concern about my health.
have no need to barnish good food for the XY chromosome.
it's so lian jia!!
still.. i know my limits.

footnote:
It's devotion taking me over.
if i could, i'll build my world around you.
(copyright from tsy collection of nice pharses)
i'm caveman remember?
we have simple dreams..

2009-02-16T21:02:00.003+08:00

here again.
i'm still so much in love with- Again.
valentine's day passed so easily and quickly.
didnt see much amazing stuff on that sat though.
must be The Recession!
flowers are better than chocolate.
got nothing,
except for a flower.
an orange rose from some person from Flexor.
oh no~ dun get it wrong.
every girl in my shop on that day recieved one.
and! he's younger and is from the much hated Flexor!

Sunday at work was soo much better.
saw a few eyecandy.
wow! nice~
but alas.. i cant share my appreciation with my co-worker of the day;
my boss.
Triple-H was sighted at my shop.
and is not just pass-by,
is go in with his relatives and try clothes kind.
they didnt buy anything though.
i almost didnt say Hi;
but that's just too &%%$.
and yar, we recognised each other and conversed.
Eyecandy! really..
see* you can still be a eyecandy if you're not fit.
he's quite meaty i would say.
but neverthelss, EYECANDY!
his eyes can speak.
Allen is weird.
asked me so many questions about him after he left.
is he your friend or schoolmate?
his background/financial status shld be very good right..
blar blar blar...
hello! i dun see him doing that when friends of other coworkers came by.
Hmm.. i guess Triple-H impressed him.
or he's just youknowyouknow.
or maybe he's interested. LOL.

decisions had been made.
my future is not with Prodesign.
have to find 2 new jobs while waiting for uni replies.
chances are minute, but!
have to still try.
hope to find a part time job in the science world,
and hopefully another in the teaching world.
dread knowing my future income is not sighted yet.
it scares me :(

i had a wonderful dream last night.
maybe cause too much pleasurable faces to see on sunday.
hmm..
i had this dream:
Love were a human with super power.
features and everything else are all that i like.
but i just couldnt see his face:(
it was amazing.
super powers were displayed.
Ahem! not those used for fighting.
but those elegant yet useful types.
from classroom to train to midair to cars to houses.
it was just like travelling.
but with an armcandy whom adores you and you him in return.
and oh yar! there's no need to worry about money too!
life just cant get any better.
oh course, there were the bad guys.
but in a happy dream
everything went well.
the last scene i remembered.
was at an auction house.
raising cards for this antique gold watch.
damn! it's good >.<
i was so confused when i woke up.
thought that the memory came from a storybook i read before bed.
i went to check to revisit good old times.
but no! it was really a dream.
too good to be true.
i wondered what it means...
is it because of the too many eyecandies sunday?
or is it because of my watch lust?
or rather a peek into my future?
i knowi know..
wait long! but hey.. this guy in my dream is hard to come by.
i would want him even without super power.
haha. the attitude and everything.
the perfect Vday gift to me.
Thanks brain:)

footnote:
would i dream it again tonight?

2009-02-13T23:55:00.003+08:00

Again and Again

by Rainer Maria Rike (1875-1926)

Again and again,

however we know the landscape of love

and the little churchyard there,

with its sorrowing names.

and the firghtening silent abyss into which the others fall:

again and again the two of us walk out together

under the ancient tress,

lie down again and agin

among the floweers,

face to face with the sky

She will be loved

by Maroon 5

I dont mind spending everyday

Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Look for the girl with the broken smile

ask her if she wants to stay awhile

And she'll be loved

She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door

I want to make you feel beautiful

I know i tend to get so insercure

It doesnt matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies

It's compromise that moves us along

my heart is full and my door's always open..

You are my sunshine

By Oliver Hood

You are my sunshine,

my only sunshine.

you make me happy when skies are blue.

you never know dear how much I Love You.

please dont take my sunshine away.

LOVE,

is too strong a feeling to say so early.

But too beautiful a meaning to say it too late.

je t'aime~

2009-02-13T23:40:00.003+08:00

Yuan Chang on the go.

currently at Beijing for the opening of A Gucci store.

can you believe it?

he colour-coded the countries!

yellow for SQ.

Blue for Boeing.

What Luck~ a master 7 cap for every outfit.

colour coded too! the boss must be his friend.

At the Gucci event.

he was there with the DuoYu1 guy.

dunno what's his name,

but he's not important.

Red-orange pants and purple shirt.

*You've got guts!*

There's just something about his hair.

i like! a pity no Nice copyright is found in SQ.

2009-02-13T23:18:00.002+08:00

Amore~

A great feeling of fondness for a person or thing.
coincindently also means Zero in a tennis match.

Valentine's day just abit away.
already i saw pp celebrating it today.
smart move! it will be price hike tmr.
the display of flowers.
a disappointing one.
only one that seek applause.
yup!
how i hope tmr is a weekday.
wish to go down city hall and Look.
there will be nicer stuff there:)

One year ago.
i blogged nth on 14th Feb 2008.
Valentine's was not even mentioned.
really wondered what was i doing back then..
i looked back.
apparently i was at attachment.
LOLOL.
and oh yar.. yuan chang fever has not yet started.

i vow to only write what's related to Vday.
*cross my heart*
my bro~ abit all the korean gf fraze.
has recently influenced my GuGu;
in what way?
to Mention, only mention;
maybe i shld go find someone.
i was like -.-
from all people much less you, do i expect this.
i was handsome!
wasnt in a hurry i told her.
dont feel like to.
and most importantly:
i know nil that like me.
and i see nobody of interest too.
i told her..
i will date yuan chang!! :)
she went: never shuai before~

it creeps me.
i know i'm into the 20th year already.
no need to remind me of the tickling clock love.
no left over energy,
or shld i say dun bear to use my new found energy on somebody else.
haha. and it's hard to find my kind of someone.
yupyup! enough said.
P.S.
dun any realtives of mine ask me that. again.
i Will: question you..
when's your next grandchild coming?

did i mention the series of cd from high society is to die for?
OMG~ i need to own it.
perfecto for Vday too.
it gets you into the mood.
lady GaGa and the Fray is good too.
not forgetting lifehouse!

Footnote:
chasing amanda.com is nth.

2009-02-12T13:07:00.003+08:00

I found my Travelling kinda layback style.

Hard to achieve but it looks great on them!

dun remind me about the size different.

difficult to put into words how is it like.

can you get it from the pictures?

damn~ they're nice!

*Pictures yielded from The Sartorialist

2009-02-10T15:07:00.002+08:00

YO:) was soo missing my yuan chang fix.

hmm.. shallnt call him xiao zhong anymore,

it sound so fan-ish!

Yuan Chang sounds more close to home. LALALA~

arriving at the Hunan airport i guess.

So great that it's winter one. Lub the jackets he had been wearing lately..

Rainie saw arjoe during transist.

Hmm.. an artist to be daring enough to face the world witb specs.

what's there noty to like?

duh~ adore the natural look too.

P.S. it's so much like me with specs. Yikes!

Someone cut his hair yet again. Interview at Hunan i guess.

leather clad legs are Hot!

Only if you're tall, lean and looks nice. LOL.

i'm bias!!

was passing time these few days ReWatching TKS.

it was still so fresh, machiam i nv watch before.

cant help crying at those weepy scenes all over again..

an overdose dont kill:)

it just rekindle the flame!

just finish stalking on youtube.

WOW! so many new videos i had missed..

from an interview, got to known that~

Erm.. Yuan Chang's First Night was at 18 years old.

Oh my~ Oh my~

i really wonder what would be the i dunno-how-many ex-GFs that he had..

what's on their mind that their once Love was like that now.

they must know of his achievements;

even if you're a bigtime caveman.

i really wonder.. >.<

it's interesting to dream nonsense once in awhile.

2009-02-04T22:43:00.002+08:00

Yuan chang is safely back in taiwan,

where he really belongs..

Him, at the his model agency cny celebrations..

Oh no~ he just forget that the ceiling is short for him.

damn! it must hurt.

one couldnt help noticing the huge difference between them..

yikes!!

crap.. nice one. how i wish he's facing the camera.
it must still be cold in taiwan.
hey!! that jacket look familar.
i've seen a smth like that in SP.
yikes!

it's just human to be a couch potato:)
to leave the burden of acting to someone else. Cheers!

2009-02-04T21:56:00.002+08:00

technical errors on the first day.
what kind of nonsense is this?
and it's not once, but a few times.
disrupting the flow,
made him said the wrong things at the wrong time.
cant be helped~
he's a newbie in the world of stageplay.
you are forgiven!! :)
BUT! it's esplanade..
how could this happen?
on a sold out stageplay too.
perhaps the person in charge of it;
is oh well~ a Girl.
too captivated by Joe that she did the wrong things.
On the other hand..
it may be fate.
i'm not there, you see..
ahem~
didnt see him at all when he's in town.
it's alright!
i would rather have him a couldnt be reached fantasy of mine.
sometimes things just get out of hand,
if you really see him as a fellow person.
i dont really stalk my idol till That way.

enough of his stageplay. LIFE~
is FYPFYPFYP.
was down with flu and cough just recently.
damn! it's the cny season.
all the goodies; missed! :(
there're just there. but i have to resist.
need my health for fyp ppt though.
after that i will go kuku;
haiz.. if there's any left.
my sickness made me sleep early everyday.
heavenly!! but hey..
one accused me of slacking.
excuse moi, i dont bring homework home..
my nature! >.<

went ahjumas visiting with aiwen today.
for your information,
they live nowhere near me.
i am not their relatives nor considered a friend.
but she's dear to me.
regardless of how disappointed am i of her son.
had a fine time making faces at little allen.
a photocopied image of his father.
cant help feeling uneasy when he looked at me.
chatting with ahjuma comes second nature.
i remb smth!!
her hair.. freaking LONG!
almost till the waist already..
she's older then me. but hey!!
her hair growing capability is one of a teenager's.
i'm ashamed~
Dear hair of tsy,
do grow do grow:)

Valentine's day is around the corner.
do you have a date planned>?
this year's on a saturday.
no VIP, so i'm deemed to work.
shall enjoy couple-seeing on that day.
the day before Feb the fourteen is Black Friday.
what luck!?
or maye because i'm single, that's why..
recalling* last year.
yeah, i was out valentine-ing.
last last year;
it was single girls out lunch,
and i remb we kinda spoilt the romantic candlelight atmosphere.
LOLOL.

Maybe it's spoken out of spite.
maybe it's the chant of the single.
on that very day,
people will okie.. try hard to please their VIP.
Erm. i dunno, outdoing the previous year.
cracking their heads for the bring-you-tears gift.
Hmm~ and oh yah! not forgetting the flower parade.
someone once told me:
i believe she's single..
On Vday.
every hooked up guy is just trying their best to outdo each other.
what do you think?
Me, i'm a hopeless romantic,
even though the logical side of me agrees.
Another singlehood champion friend of mine once said:
alot of babies are wasted on Vday.

I ask again:
have you got a date?
if this year's Vday is on a weekday..
i would not gather a group of single gf for a day out.
i will just spend the afternoon shopping.
the evening seated at somewhere nice alone.
watching the passer-bys, i meant couple-bys.
feeling fully the taste to be alone.
but at the same time,
remembering the times when you were out there participating.
Yup! i may sound old.
but this is the way i feel,
the only time then you can really really understand;
i dun really know the word for it..
(i just had cough medicine so i cant think well)
the importance,
or should i say understand the feeling of Love.
isnt that what Vday is all about? Love.
i maybe werid to have the thought of using that.
but~ that's what i feel.
so hey!! a single on a Vday isnt that bad.
^.^ you can always give me a ring to perform the task stated above.
it would be interesting.

footnote:
Recover quickly ms tan>.<

2009-01-30T23:41:00.002+08:00

CNY first few days are here and gone.
so fast!!
actually the real activity only began on the second day.
for my family only...
red packets giving away are always completed on the first days;
Erm.. to immediate family.
but since i only appear on the second day.
they just came pouring!!
i'm glad.
even though i missed a few,
they just didnt turn up. give till hands ruan already i guess.
recession ma. TskTsk*
the usual questions were asked.
aw man.. now i understand how the young adults feel.
suddenly everyone's interested in your love life.
hmm... i was just wondering if they cant wait to give me ang bao on my wedding day or what?!
cant be helped.
you may not know how i answered them.
haha. and oh yar!!
for those who like to comment on people's physical size.
i shot them down too.
wait. dun you know that i only eat more when i'm happy.
i may whine blah blah..
but i'm fine with it.

went to the shop's cny gathering too.
to the steamboat where aiwen and i stared at everything.
they do look suspiciously unclean. haha.
we're weary of our health.
no need to stuff yourself worth of the money and get:
non-stop overflowing diarrhoea the next day.
not worth.
a cleaner place please.
and oh yar! i just dun understand.
dun you had enough of steamboat at home.
Hello!! cny season le, steamboat is at all homes. i assume.
so i dun see a good reason for choosing that.
let's be kind and not bring upt the soo afforadable price.
we must take into considerations,
that he's treating soo many people right.
yikes! what de nerve.
you have already saved alot from the pathetic bonus you gave me.
you cancelled my live xiao zhong.
so unworthy of expressing my caveman charcteristics towards you.

footnote: i cross my fingers to be able to send him off.

2009-01-30T23:03:00.002+08:00

joe's in singapore!!

I lUB:)

at the prescon in spore.

when he just arrived...
i'm so sad i didnt get to welcome him.
he's wearing all yellow. I like!!

posing for Wo Bao.

busy smsing someone on his Iphone. yikes!!

i like the nanny car. huge and comfy.

i got that book that fan's holding!!

2009-01-22T23:07:00.002+08:00

it's well known that ms tan and mr tan (father);
aint the best relationship.
nth is better then got smth.
had the most LOL and senseless conversation with mr tan just recently.

OMG~ and i thought i was werid,
he's Allien!!
dunno what's he doing with his life now.
saw him at home de whole day today.
Bamb! must be nth good.
and alas.. i'm right.
but nay, i'm hardhearted and selfish against some stuff,
even though i'm a caveman:)
i couldnt care less about his situation.
am fine and very well, suport myself..
so that's just too bad if his aged brain couldnt convince him to act responsilbily.
he can count on my aunt! she's still young. Muhahah!!!

enough of all his nonsense.
i cant process allien talk.

AHEM~
had this enlightening converation with a friend.
which ended abruptly.
damn! i hate it when people got me hooked to a topic and dangle me away again.
so cruel! but, it's the modern way :(
i was told that a SpaceAgeHeartlessNotPleasingToTheEyeBodyMindAndSoul Ah Lian;
got a better taste then me.
was like wth exactly..
when i demanded an explaination,
the person just bought me out.
there's simply no reason that i can think of that she can have better taste then me.
hmm.. actually there's a few.
but strictly in my mind only.LOL
Gees! you must be blind.

2009-01-22T15:05:00.000+08:00

isnt this picture too yellow?

maybe cause it's CNY soon. duh^

2009-01-22T14:45:00.002+08:00

cleaned up the blog!
added new links i've discovered recently;
which are worthy of reading :)
their owners are Erm..
from all over the place; US or UK i think.
they look stick-thin, possible models i guess.
they must be! in order to support their scary wardrobe.
oh yar.. unless they're shamelessly rich.
that can explain where in the world do they have so much time to dress so nicely.
i admire though*
seeing how the Europeans dress.
oh my gosh! Lub*
wonder where in Singapore can i see that.
it's pleasing to the eye >.<

Super nice is: La Femme.
salute!! SHE, did all kinds of jobs.
to support herself to go travelling.
nice isn't it. damn brave!
she's kinda slow in updating.
must be busy settling down in a new location.
cant wait for more. Slurps^

weekend to CNY is approaching.
got to work again.
a scary monster threatening to overcome my mental block against WORK.
i dun wish to remember.
it's a relief that i'm finally graduating soon.
but argh! foreign environment is scary.
being a real working adult in a no nonsense job is hair loss.
*fingers crossed*

my fyp group.
dun admire asmida's way of thinking.
i hope she read it!
she blogged on a certain day where only she and mila did fyp,
she feels very happy and no stress at all.
and direct quote: the most no stress fyp day till now
So i realise: doing fyp with me is stressful.
of course! for a lazy, slow motion person which is one third of the time not there.
efficiency is deemed as stress.
no wonder you're what you're.
nobody has soo many free time to slowly do as you can.
Really hope to see what happens if we really used her way..
would we be as fast and organised as we were?
cow faeces*
a person whom i no longer will see for pleasure in the future,
whatever~ but i just like to empahsize.

supposed to be doing PFGE assignment.
BUT! i cant read anymore..
after the cleaning up of fyp ppt and the blog,
eyes are going crossed.
tmr's another no-school day.
shopping. meeting dan xian.
cant wait!! :)

footnote: no more Yi Zhi Mei to watch.
there's a second season showing in korea already.
not lee jun ji! sob*

2009-01-16T22:53:00.002+08:00

SLR Mclaren Coupe.

a whit one would be nicer:)

noticed it in wei xiao pasta!!

Audi R8. super nice!Loves..

2009-01-16T22:17:00.003+08:00

i survived triple M :)
or at least that scary meeting on our FYP report.
just a little more touch-ups to go and we're done.
dun understand how can we be so fast,
did we portray it to be too simple or what?
god knows....
presentation to tackle next,
crap*
we Have to include tripleM during our ppt practices..
so scary. BUT!
at least one lioness lecturer is by our side,
one less predator during the real ppt..

hair-cut. checked!
only need to shop More..
for myself and my bro.
a pathetic looney.
did i tell you...
he lost ALot of weight in a short time.
breaking his schl's record.
they presented him with an award.
LOl right??
must be his korean gf behind all that..
wont want a overweight guy, would you?
i prefer mine tall and lanky. normal will do :)
muscular is scary.
of course! would appreciate a person who;
dun restraint oneself for the wrong reasons.
keeping healthy is a must.
but dun torture yourself by not eating stuff that you wanna.
it feels like crap.
wait till you're old..
have the ability to eat now, you dun.
wait till the day when you really must say No, then you'll regret.
in moderation of course >.<>not that i am jealous of skinny people.
it's just that sizeS shirts are small and most importantly SHORT!
meaning you're aint tall.
vertical-lism is essential :D

did anyone notice???
the new AUDI showroom?
simply adores it :) :)
R8 is good. R9 is applaudable too.
cant resist sneaking a peak at it during train rides..
it's well known that since ancient times,
i have a Big thing against Subaru.
dont admire mitsubishi too.
Audi is Love. favourite.
Mclaren SLR is good too.
if your understanding of the above is good.
you may have notices those car brands de cars.
tends to be rounded and less angular..
like Lotus and Lambo..

Travel leisure South east asia is out again :)
new reading material, cant wait.
work is tmr.. oh gish!
spare me those xiao hun hun.

footnote:
Lydia by F.I.R is really super damn nice.
ageless! i cant find my soft copy of it.. :(

2009-01-14T12:56:00.002+08:00

xiao Zhong :)

the side view. abit blur though*

so skinny right.
scary*

nice stare!

P.S. the new xiao tian ( run jin tian) show is CMI.

again, they are trying to increase the ratings with bed scenes.

caught the makng of the bed scene on 100% entertainment.

oh my tian.. is older sister little brother kinda thing.

but nay, the task was not accomplished! muhahaha*

cant wait to see jerry yan and lin yi chen's new show though.

shld be good! >.<

2009-01-13T11:38:00.003+08:00

Met up with Aiwen the other day.
YOOHOO... she straightened her hair.
and it's long. look so different but Nice:)
more girly now. haha.
guess we have all grown up.
we went to eat.shop.eat. again.
dessert is awesome!!

everyone is super busy.
FYP FYP FYP.
there's still alot to do,
for my group too!
dunno why.. we still manage.
maybe our wet bench part is much shorter?
i dunno~ but hey!
it's abit scary to finish first.
we are still editing and editing.
cant find Triple M for a week already.
she's gone! must be the JAE :(
damn... still ask as to meet her asap.
cant even contact her lo. DUH~

CNY is near.
but hey.. there's no mood.
alot of people,
or shld i say classmates;
are not into cny shopping.
there goes the festive mood.
tsktsk* too usy as they seem.
so embrassing to even try and ask them.
but hey!!
still must as:)
cant give up when threre's a teeny weeny hope.
but alas! the asking landed me in deep soup.
they must feel irritated.
cant be helped, they're mutating into bees.
as in: busy as a bee. YUP!
true to be told,
i know my FYP report has taken shape.
but i believe in making use of all free time.
my group rarely meet.
but when we meet, we do work.
dunno why, we can still do it fine.
it maybe LUCK.
there's a time for everything.
so despite all the buzzing,
one must still relax.
all the honourable philosophy..
easier said then done.

however, i still wanna have my CNY >.<
all the more i should go shopping.
cut hair! so fun so fun.
and xiao zhong is coming soon.
still contemplating if i shld go see him.
the price of the ticket aHH~
heart pain! :(

The biggst distance in the world;
is not life and death. But,
is of me standing in front ofyou.
and you not knowing i love you.

Nice~

2009-01-07T14:01:00.002+08:00

was shopping with georgina yesterday.
it was nice!
we were very on task,
trying hard.. to find cny clothes.
know it's abit too early,
but i'm very %%(#@,
very hard to find smth i like.
haha. and oh yar!
i really need to buy new shoes.
the blue one is rotting already.

and yes! i bought a new pair.
anyhow... since there's not much choice.
i like it too:)
but!! it's a noisy shoe.
the metal decor will go *clang clang* at every step.
oh my..
gone were the days i could sneak up onto people.
but nvm, i like! *laughs*

CNY shopping.
super limited.
cant be too causal, cant be too dark.
i am attracted to black;
slimming effect you know.
sigh* no to dark shirts shopping.
tsktsk! i restricted myself.
anf true enough.., i found a light blue top.
very very my kinda thing.
dunno if i could wiat till CNY to wear it.
haha. we shall see....

timetable is a mess.
lessons are shifted here and there.
and hey!! quite a few days without school.
but no.
i'm not going to work. i refused to!
CNY is round the corner,
guess i wont be so poor after all the red packets.
no matter how little, at least got some.
haha.
and triple M has returned her comments on our fyp report.
GOSH!!! red wordings everywhere.
Exclaimation marks after every sentence.
wth* so RUDE!!
the report is such a mess,
and we are to meet her soon.
next monday please,
just let me have these few days free.
got to redo and edit the report.
such a chore. but still it must be done.
sigh^

eew! half of the weekdays are gone.
the weekend at shop is approaching soon. yikes!
damn dun look forward to it.

am meeting aiwen on friday! :D
FINALLY.
may fyp not stop me..

P.S. am having a hard time thinking of what colour to paint my toenails.
any suggestion?

2009-01-07T13:56:00.002+08:00

xiao zhong once again!:)

at the new year eve count down at taiwan.

Nice~

eyebags abit too heavy though.

wonder how he kept his hair up;

opposing gravity.

that hair colour is GOOD,

can only suits guys who are not that tan.

i like!! >.<

2009-01-05T12:21:00.005+08:00

2009 new year resloutions aka wishlist :)

firstly, ms tan gonna graduate this year already.
so I wish to be enlightened on what i want to do in the future.
continue studying? or work?
i know nil now.
i shall figure it out. SOON.

of course all in school,
i wish to be fine.
FYP, exams all whatsoever.

work.
prodesign aka shop will be history soon.
but before that i wish to maintain that lian jia but essential 'friendship' with the gangsters.
yup! and also to of course maintain my sales.

family.
may all be healthy and kicking.
and i will still phone my GuGu everyday :)

health.
i wish for the stupid allergy problem to disappear.
irritaing condition.
and oh yar, be safe and sound.

friends.
wish all to be less lian jia.
it's important!
those who yearn to go overseas shall be gone.
those who're going NS,
may you be well.
actually i wish to:
send them off or into camp;
with flowers.
but machaim abit werid le.
LOL. an oh yar, i also lost my right to do it.
but who cares,
i like to surprise people :)
if only they will surrender their book-in and fly-off dates!

and everything i like.
hope to really see xiao zhong this year :)
i'm counting my pennies! $108 le.......
shall not be dense and say:
wish to lose weight -.-
healthy will do.
dont appreciate bamboo sticks.
and oh yar,
if comfort food makes me happy,
i'll guard them with my stomach:)
but in moderation of course.

and most importantly,
i wish to be Happy and LADY LUCK!
be by my side yar.. >.<>reduce exhaustion brought by modern people,
may non lian jia people befriend me by the truckload!
to brighten up my day, and to appreciate the art;
may eyecandies flood my path too!

i rarely do plan ahead,
one step at a time is sometimes good enough.
dont usually review my resolutions after i wrote it.
but hey! it's fun to write.

2009-01-05T11:57:00.002+08:00

Actually, my New Year begins today.
have been busy working since the last day of 2008 till yesterday.
finally got days out of bugis.
aint i glad? >.<

have you done your new year resolutions?
hmm.. i havent.
but i always believe that one should conclude the previous before moving to the new.
same for Years too!!

crap*
but i cant seem to remember what new year resolutions i wrote for last year.
could be in the direction of:
recovery. have health have work.
yup!! i guess that's about it.

2008.
oh my! you can say that nothing dramatic happened.
let me see...
went for attachment!
knew people that went, chill and go.
no strings attached mind you.
so lian jia people, no need to stay :)
anyway, it is the year where;
how should i say?
remember the healing process in science?
the growth of new skin and the wound contract and seals up.
smth like that.
but not entirely true too.
instead of channeling my energy on wasted history,
i wold rather sit and stare.
be around and floating rather then be a pest.
so to that, i did well.
WELL DONE WELL DONE! :)

as to work and school and everything in between..
all seems well,
could be very busy, or poor.
but i still managed to survive.
all is well.
not forgetting i discovered family
yupyup! GuGu and cousins.
how i could i be well and happy,
without them. LOVES~

and i do remember! year 2008.
the year where i discovered xiao zhong;
and since, couldn't get enough of him.
haha. the paragon of all males>?
no exactly. i just like!
i remember aiwen saying:
yan ya lun is boyfiriend.
kenji wu is husband. haha.
guess i sorted out mine as well.
xiao zhong is addiction.
zhang dong liang is home.
may you get what i mean.
*think*

Lo and behold,
i thereby conclude my 2008.

2009-01-03T01:04:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL.

rushed and handed in the fyp report on time.
cross all my 10 fingers and toes as to what triple M will say.
eek! so scary an unpredictable.
i like to yun nian for my future. LOL.

tests results are back.
ahem! still quite alright.
I am glad! :)
thank you Lady Luck.
and yes franco,
i believe in luck.

study buddy dun seems to be happy with his results.
i dislike seeing people disappointed.
cant help but feel the guilt.
who knows,
maybe part of that not-so-up-to-expectation results is partly cause by me?
i am such a caveman.

2009-01-03T00:53:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 2009.

oh gosh.
one year flew passed just like that..
i'm ageing! argh*
the 31st; countdown day.
marina, sentosa, vivo.
i was at none..
got to work :(
it's alright la..
i'm not a count-down kinda person.
always got to work on the day after aka, the public holiday.
i dun like to go home late too.
scary and eerie! haha.

i only wanna complain about one thing.
and that thing is... ( dun i sound like woo wee wee? smirks!)
i wanna go to shawn shawn's house too.. sob*
but hey!!
i got a heart warming surprise.
the people turned up at shop at 10pm.
presented me with self-baked cookies.
i was super Touched!
and you know what..
earlier in the morning,
i made a passing remark that i wanted:
star and heart shape cookies.
and ohmytian* i really got them!
i really big thank you.
the people made my day.
thanks whoever for suggesting that idea.
the cookies were awesome!! :)

if only i know who made which of the cookies.
winkwink!
but you cant ask for much can you?
wishful thoughts are wasting brain space.
ctrl alt delete.

P.S i still haven finish the cookies.
dun bear to eat them >.<

2009-01-03T00:26:00.003+08:00

deal with the past before moving to the present*

as i recalled:
last few days of 2008 or so.
i wrote about the One and xmas dinner etc.
maybe great minds think alike or what.
it cant be telepathy!
to my upmost surprise.
he came to apologise.
that night;
slept at 10pm; a dead man's sleep.
didnt even hear the phone ring.
early in the morning at 6am.
i saw it.. i was like!
awake Immediately.
wanted to text back to clarify stuff,
bt hey! it's hard to express what i wanna say;
in words so i decided to spit it out face to face.
but Alas!!
machiam nv hear de sit there. argh!!
so much courage was needed to say things face to face le.
so discouraged.
almost gave up; but nay!
i texted him briefly. of course, no reply:(

i wanted to scream de house down.
blah! dun get it wrong..
it's not because of interrupting my date or smth.
it wasnt even about it being a stupid action.
it was the sudden let down after the happy anticipation.
let me recite what i wanted to say:
BECAUSE,
already nobody is free to eat dinner le,
a very sad case isnt it.
the sudden news of You coming to join us;
(i dunno) but i guess mainly to pass time or what while waiting,
and 100% cause you wanna see us is already not quite correct.
but hey! it's you.
and you're coming.
(of course) will anticipate and ohmytian* be happy,
even though it's abit lian jia.
I had high hopes of seeing you.
was so happy.
even manage to get over the lian jia thingy.
and then what..you aint coming after all.
can you imagine that.
the sudden crash down to earth.
the only small little self-created hope dashed.
just like that_
for a cause yor friend come already de reason.
so SAD!! so Disappointing.
but who's to know.
so that's xmas eve drama.

i am not sure.
i may assume it.
i just wish to bring to light de modern human way of things.
tsy=caveman,
jst dun understand how it works..
irritated i will be, but i'll come to terms and accept it;
without kicking up a storm.

*i am still wondering about the telepathy thingy*

P.S.i tried my best to do what i wanna say in the form of words.
some may read it and understand it.
some may misunderstand.
some may be confused.
some may be offended.
but hey. i just wanna say. really.

PEACE my dear :)

2008-12-29T18:35:00.002+08:00

i'm so far behind time.
yup..
so i continue:)

after DnD.
Itis our supposed to be class outing.
yeah yeah! sponsered by SP.
planned to go ice skating at kallang.
was this ___ PISSED.
we trekked down there early in the morning.
to find out that the rest had PS us.
only 4 people turned up.
spoliers!!
such attitude,
is it one a human should have?
they must be afraid of falling.
cowards.
heaven dun do us justice.
Rain like mad!!
we still manage to make our way to the glasshouse fish and co for dinner.
yup!! the rest turned up there.
so CMI right!?
they're just too modern.
strolled to orchard and the christmas lights are Nice.

Not a few days after,
it's time to meet for twillight! >.<
cant wait...
got to volunteer to book the tickets.
if not! who would go..
the same people turned up.
am too excited about the movie.
smiles!
caught it and still super in love with Edward Cullen.
SluRp*
went to eat Rochor Beancurd after that..
so many class outings, so little time.

Back to the usual working life after all That excitement.
Money is my best friend.
refuse to waste effort writing about the shop.
it's the same old nonsense.
high blood pressure.
premature ageing!!

Before Christmas.
it is always a MUST to go down to tanglin mall:)
to see the fake snow.
to see the ang moh kids playing.
yup! soaking up the atmosphere..
was just this close to not make it there this year.
Luckily for JU JIE.
helped to take the bad to and fro too..
oh my!! Bravo :)

Christmas!!
yup.. the eve is spent out, without work of course.
had waraku with Ju Jie.
Prawn and PS came to join us later.
ahem*
there's smth.
how could ONE.
who at first dun wanna join us for dinner,
text and ask to join us when only His friends are super late at meeting him.
thick0skin or what? i seriously have no idea.
all these aside,
yup, ok, you come.
BUT! not 10min later,
a text saying: oh i not coming already.
ghost also can guess his friends have reached already.
wth*
spare tyre X10 is it?
no manners!!

after dinner... strolling down to cityhall.
it rainned!! argh*
apparently it was sooo heavy thta my umbrella gave way a few times.
it was super funny.
get wet. laugh. stare and Merry christmas:)

2008-12-24T12:22:00.001+08:00

Love his new hair cut!! :)

2008-12-19T17:16:00.002+08:00

hello:)

was gone for soooo long.
one month plus to be exact.
too many stuff to do,
too many things to rush.
Alas! time do flies..

Ahem..
There was the exams at first.
duh! it's only MST;
but it's like the end of the world for most of us.
endless chanting with heads bent over our notes.
coffee and tea ovedose in vain to keep awake.
Esplanade became my second home!
of course, we managed to get over it, and be done!
oh yah... studying was made easier with Ju Jie.
companion at its best >.<

after the exams..
the dinner and dance thing is only a few days away.
talked about desperation!
the hours of combing around orchard,
tyring to find the perfect dress.
SO hard!!
p.s. i know it's partly because of my size,
some are just not suitable for me.
good to be told..,
i finally found the one i liked.
and know what!?
it's the first dress i seen and loved at first sight.
at WAREHOUSE.
expensive!! i know..
managed to found an exact replica at far east.
hey.. dun go chanting: it's a fake.
i was triple-glad that i didnt buy the one from warehouse.
all smiles! :)
of course there will be a fear of someone else;
wearing the same dress as you.
weird as i am,
i wanted to wear gloves.
maybe abit cosplay but the effect turned out right with a few blights!
done with the dress,
makeup is Free. HAHA.
hair is easy.
all set and ready..

On that fateful day.
i was ____ late for everything.
making of hair turned out to be a tedious and ohmytian job.
dun wanna look too aunty with all that curly hair.
it was redone for a freaking 3times!!
talked anout patience.
of course i need to cab down to get my make up done.
Thank You Ferlyn!! :)
Was seated beside Alan;
yup, you read correctly, Alan during the dinner.
was quite alright la.
i tends to get overly excited and start smacking the people beside me to get their attention. and to my horror, it really happens!
argh* he must be wondering.
this crazy woman, anyhow touch here touch there -.-
the women are nice.
the men are dashing!!
shawn is so--ohmyicantdescribe de nice.
the eye-candiest of the lot.
i juts cant help but stare!!
alan is not bad himself too.
exactly the way one should dress,
but Too Bad.
dinner went well with the hilarious MC and wait!
the mr and ms red carpet (the theme) sucks big time.
i almost cringed in disgust with the announcement.
hah! No taste! No taste!

after the dinner:)
it's slack time.
endless cam-whoring!! duh..
drove down to the airport for fun;
to stay up till first light and have breakfast.
luckily, alan and hui hui drove.
yup!! hui hui's was a normal sedan.
alan's was a subaru impreaza.
talked about mismiatches!
i just happen to dislike that car brand.
ahem! maybe it's fate.
no apologies intended.
the ride home to jurong was supposed to be a killer.
but Hui hui!! bless her kind soul drove me back.
you heard right... how nice!!
what a pity i didnt get to sit that impreaza!

to be continued..................

2008-11-10T22:05:00.002+08:00

Ni hao!! :)
oh my tian.. i was gone for soo long.

the last weekend was hmm..
firstly there was the subaru challenge.
didnt really agree with the challenge as i think it's too &%&%.
to me..,
very dangerous.
later get sick, strike be lightning etc..
cant grasp why people wanna go for it.
but now!!
$80k really mean alot.
you can sell and study literally anything you want.
go after your dreams etc. HMM!!
so i hope someone will win and well,
and use the money well.
dun really admire those who just wanna win the car to drive.
really hope someone 'good' will win it.
those family in need,
for business, for study. yea!
that's what i feel.

Erm.. this year's challenge is more close to home.
Alan got in through the call-in.
was ____ happy for him;
since he likes driving so much.
alright.. even though it's not really my business.
i secretly hope that IF he really win,
he'll sell the car, use the money and go after his dream.
haha. not that i know what's his dream.
but... i mean;
have a future you're interested and will work hard in,
is way better then having a car with a job you have no passion in.
Alright!! of course i cheer him on and congrats him.
i even had the urge to go on site and cheer him on.
even though SOOO many people told me not to.
i cannot la.. i know i must go.
so... took a few hours off.
hey! it's the first time i put smth else before work on a sat >.<
was habouring the thought that well, he'll win.
even though i know it's way impossible.
and that!! i would of course not want to see someone i know to fall ill due to the dumb challenge.
I DID GO.
but he didnt get in..
well! that's fate...

am going for the CLS dinner A.D.D!
yup.. but it's in the middle of sch term.
more then abit duh~
have they no sense as to what that dinner means?
dickheads!!
gone~
will be the sense of farewells and teary departures.
it completely lost its purpose.
i'm disapointed! :(
am going with the usual gang.
dun really look forward to it very much.
hey!! i have limited friends.
and i'm not that close with my classmates.
we have different frequencies.
and CLS le, confirm no eyecandies one.
hiaz... what to wear is another big prob.
no great figure to show.
no fantastic legs too!
but hold on.. i'm not those type.
so i couldnt care less. haha.
cant imagine myself with a frilly dress.
i would like something weird!
headache!!
but i think i found it le..
so no worries:)
hope it'll turn out right.

footnote:
where's a magic wand when you need it?

2008-11-07T12:55:00.004+08:00

Xiao Zhong:)

At the Golden Bells Award.. 31 Oct 2008.

As dashing as always. Yum!!

Waht a great pair..
To present the award.
Erm.. dun Lin Yi Chen's legs look abi too white. LOL.

She is recieving the price.
LOOK! Xiao Zhong is soo happy. Too High!

the aftermath >.<

celebrating. Zhong Zhong look so layback and relax.

Hey!! At a mag shoot.
kao.. In yellow wor :)

Swoon* Edible.

At his friend's.. LOL. i dunno his name;

de autograph session.

Promoting LoB at Zhong Yi da ge Da.
Tada!!

Beloved Master Seven cap.
It's selling at 77th Street. Yup!

am getting it. but hey! along of xiao hun hun wearing le..

haiz..

the original look of his. i still like :)

2008-11-07T12:52:00.002+08:00

Golden Bells Award.. :)

the more close to heart characters.

He is (^&^$. haiz.. Not nice!

Eddie Peng. Georgina, this is the best picture i coulde find.
Apparentlt his suit is not fittign enough for him. -.-

Rainie looks Nice!! Mike He..

sadly.. look sickly. Erm!!

2008-10-28T12:33:00.002+08:00

i was happily buzzing around these few days.
Hmm.. sch work is forever;
cannot finish de la!! duh~
FYP is really getting on my nerves.
so much to do so little time.
headless flies! -.-
datasheets are pilling up.
ah! there's this stupid log book thing to do too.
Imagine:
*dear diary* for every practical lesson..
oh my~

work is soo far so Good.
yup! newcomers again,
but they're nice:)
at least the 13 year old one is.
yeah~ and is hardworking too.
Finally!! somebody worthy.
ahem.. due to a PasaMalam at woodlands.
arch ememy is removed.
Hurray* couldnt care less though.
may all be well...
Ahjuma's birthday.
Allen reminded me.
so guilty of not remembering.
but nay! i'll remb it from now on.
no presents for her,
so i gave her a hand-made card.
you know what?!
she doesnt know how to read english.
so i have to write in chinese.
it's a freaking chore.
got to check the dictionary all the time.
argh!! but.. for a good cause;
who cares!

AIWEN's birthday is yesterday.
yup!! i remebered but i Chose to wish her at a very late time.
hey! dun care to be the first to wish her.
i woyld ratehr be the last.
hey! so that she'll remember.
haiz.. hope she wont mistake me.

went for a semi-class outing.
DINNER at Mahattan.
yup! with the you know you know..
waited 1.5hrs for everyone to arrive.
wth!! i was &**%^$ this close to screaming.
was sandwiched btw Franco and Alan.
argh.. lucky Franco is smart enough.
i survived the night :)
we strolled to city hall after that.
Hmm.. From central down le..
so freaking far!
was cheated no doubt to walk that far.
took loads of pictures too.
met a busker on the way.
at one of the tunnels.
was quite shocked.
but i Love it.
he's singing She'll Be Love;
while strumming the guitar.
i was like oOOo!!
so super affected!!
dunno why it just got me all whoosed-up!
yup! i did drop in a 2bucks.
only alan and i paid for his show.
maybe the rest of the class dun appreciate such stuff.
Wasted!
cant wait to go back and ask him to perform again.

on my DVD chasing craze.
gave up on using my house's com le la,
my aunt kept hogging it for her wth* video conference.
FED-UP X10000.
me;
just make do with Tudou.
watch Bu Liang Siao Hua,
and Hot shot.
Wilber Pan is Hot.
after he slimmed down.
his english contaminated chinese is oOh~ so nice.
swooned at his voice man.
cant stand the Raine Yang though.
abit irritating.
got my fill of eyecandies in HotShot.
Jerry Yan lived up to his name;
still so good looking despite his age.
A.. he's a little too skinny though,
abit sickly.......................
but his character in the show is just my kind of thing.
soo like Zhi Su in tks. MELT! MELT!
Guess~ i'm just into those kind.
BUT! mind you*
i still adore my zheng yuan chang :)

footnote:
so many stuff i wanna watch.

2008-10-17T23:13:00.002+08:00

a hell lot of stuff happened today.
the important and the take it easy ones..
damn!! FYP was hectic.
cant be bothered with the toot toot's attitude.
wth exactly are you trying to say?
fed up Totally with your couldnt be bothered attitude.
block it 101!!
people wanted speed.
so of course, volunteers are the biggest.
at least in my book.
alas!! talk and talk, machiam so relac.
HELLO~ people are waiting and grunmbling madam!!
are you such an EQ idiot?!
cant be bothered. Really!
another is just like Sir Stamford Raffles Statue.
if you get what i mean..
however, little people do.
am i speaking alien language or what.. DUH!

the processing in tha lab part is even more:
hilarious!
cant imagine any other more wierd circumstances.
ahem!! thou shall not reveal the details.
not impt. However, i did learnt smth valuable:)
it may not be great for the weak stomach.
1. to me, heck what others may think.
not looking at the person you're speaking to is plain rudeness.
or am i too dazzling?
cut the crap of- for my own good dun wanna give you false hope nonsense.
RUDE!
2. it all seems too gd to be true that it appeared fake.
lol. i dun mean it, but it really seems to be.
so sorry about that, well! how can someone so rude be sincere?
3. small talk sux.
have never been a fan of it.
but nay! too soft hearted to attempt aiwen's i only talk to pp i like kinda attitude.
i need my volunteers still.
4. i admire vampires:)
really do. if i were one,
i can decode your actions,
strip it down, turn it over, examine it inside out.
to gorge out any possible motive,
to peek at your inner mind,
to summon my armour in time for the next possible attack.
Actually, i just wanna know what are you thinking.
Yup!! so simple.
5. ban mian without a runny egg yolk spoils everything!!

life after schl is so what the same.
cousins! food!
chatting on the phone is heaven!
aiwen's decoding of the day's events brought;
made me feel much better.
it's so eerie to live a day,
guessing what someone's thinking.
as if it matter though. Hmm..
Franco, i shld say..
is not as easy as he seems to be.
Friends cautioned me about telling him too much.
and damn... they were true.
Hash Realities yar!! :(
cant help it. hope he got his heart and liang xing screwed on tight.
*cross my fingers*

tnr is again a SAT. argh^
am sooo tired that i have trouble keeping my eyes open.
no energy to even watch my xiao zhong tonight.
BUT! beautiful words, i still can manage.

i, hereby thank you Guo Ming.
whole-heartedly >.<
thank You!!
dunno whether they are useful or not.
but most importantly, it's the thoughts that count.
i'm really damn suprised by your willingness.
yup! means i nv lend my BB book to you wrongly.
i am possessive of my stuff you know.
hey! so glad you still remb about the last-time-stuff.
haha. i meant the thing about An Quan Gan :)
cause only you'll comprehend ba.
THANK YOU!

footnote:
to bed to bed to bed.
if i say it 3 times, i really DO mean it.

2008-10-15T12:09:00.002+08:00

Next..

LoB prescon in Hang Zhou :)

they unite! damn glad.

looking great~!
OMG~ swoon. killer outfit.

Xiao Zhong attended the Seoul Drama Festival.

he looked edible in anything he wore. if only spore guys have that sense.

dispise anyhting that had got to do with honey clover band. lol

for the red carpet >.<
in love with his craze about bows.. haha.

don't think any SP people can achieve that look during DnD. LOL.

even if they copy the outfit directly, the face and manners sure fail.

no charm!!

2008-10-15T11:55:00.002+08:00

have not! forgotten Xiao Zhong :)

been very busy myself..

so here! marathon xiao zhong. slurp~

alright! he is busy too.

nay.. people so li hai.

spokesman for Lotte; Perero choco sticks >.<

i will buy!!

ding dong.. have to act as cupid for the ad :)

WA~ perfect side view. oh yar* i love big hands people too. YUM.

need to action for awhile.
They did it. :) finished flimming taiwan part of LoB.

the show is coming soon! yes. may it coincides with georgina's taiwan trip.

idols baking bread for LoB promotion..

hey hey!! i really do support him for being him. so here~

even without all the glits and galmour. i still like.

bites!! the master seven cap. so rare!! cant find in thailand :( I WANT.

ditched the specs, enjoying the hairy crabs. love the CAP.

2008-10-11T00:37:00.002+08:00

was working my arse off the whole holiday.
damn. there's only 2 days left.
alot of stuff happened.
the good the bad. argh!!

a typical china friend of my aunt came to tour spore.
nobody said about her coming to stay.
just one fine day after work,
oh no!! i discovered an extra pillow on my bed.
read: Queen size.
was so used to dominating my whole bed.
haha. Long ago,
i only slept on one side.
but hey! i learnt to sleep in the middle now :)
dunno what caused the change.
but i like it.
SO.. sharing my bed is an absoulte NONO.
ahem!! somemore without prior notice. duh~
anyway, That china happily told my aunt that she;
dunno how to slp on the same bed with another human.
so tada! i escape sleeping with a stranger >.<
that china women is quite IN.
thought my household how to use webcam and chat etc..
kao~ now my dad's labby looked so fully equipped.
They! whole day chat with the china villagers via webcam.
macham it's FREE. lol.
wait till the bill arrive and all hell break loose.
can forsee they'll push the blame to me. yikes!!
was hopeful that all will be back to normal once the china woman go home.
but nay!!still the webcam thingy crazy.
now they's even a mike with headphones for easy conversation.
they misused it! maxing the volume till the speakers so ZZZzzz.
argh! now i cant even enjoy a song with the static.
much less my idol dramas :(
dammit!
but i shall not but a labtop or portable dvd player on such an impulse.
i've got better sense.

work.
is the same..
when i work, people ask me when i off.
when i have a few days off, people question why aint i working.
is the world wierd or what!?
i really dunno.
no worries, even if i quit to a take a break.
i wont ask you to feed me.
i am independent for too long for that.
was off for 4 days straight.
duh~ suggested by allen! first time.
wanna save salary ma. think i dunno.
upset my sat sun off to prepare for monday schooling plans.
for what!? so that he could bring the dreadful meiling to thailand.
wth!!! smart right.
and did i mention i was sick for the 2 of the 4 days :(
Guess my body is trying to tell me smth.

was really BAD LUCK today.
damn.. sold smth 30bucks cheaper.
i know i'm in the wrong.
but hey!! bith products looked the same.
i have assumed the price to be the same since god knows when.
and have been telling all the small children it's that price le..
a new product. com on lar.. my boss dun even take the time to explain to me de.
maybe i'm really superhuman to him.
and i happen to do well in sales that i.
managed to sell it off.
but anyone could have made this mistake.
just that my product selling skills too good le,
kana till me.
however, i see no need to call me from thailand to scream at me.
haiz..really dun get it.
maybe i've worked there for too loong.
thus for the stricter treatment.
i dunno.
i can almost see them gossiping about me in thailand.
really need all the luck i can get this weekend.
if the sales is anything less then today,
i'm in deep shit!! :(
but i take my work seriously,
and i pride myself for that.
Aiwen always say he treat us for granted etc etc..
with such accidents and disaggrements btw me and him;
happening with increasing frequencies.
it may well be a damn short time,
before i throw in the towel and call it quits.
it's not as if i take your pay for nth.

you gave me a miserable basic pay which i have work my arse off;
not to make it better, but to be on par the fellow newer workers.
i once asked a question:
money more impt, or happy more impt.
that was last time.
when i fend to stay and work in bugis or leave and be happy.
i chose loyalty. i continued.
faced again with that question.
i have no need to choose.
i can always find job elsewhere.
and be happygolucky with the sales.
not my shop anyway..

sometimes i really wondered why i care so much.
it is not my scope of work to worry about so many things.
used to bluff myself that i strive soo hard for a higher pay.
but hey! no need to do till so extreme de ma.
i treat my boss like family.
apparently, he doesnt return the favour.
even though last time i think he does.
WASTED~

footnote:
so cold and drowsy :(
a miserable tsy.
another loong day tmr. wish me luck. please!

2008-09-24T21:36:00.002+08:00

Zheng Yuan Chang :)

heard that he just got back from japan.

now is again going to shanghai. toot!

dunno what for~

but hey! come to spore la... LOL.

anyway, there's this new stageplay.

By HIM. virgin attempt in stage plays.

On early Dec; Beijing Poly Theatre.

but nay.... so china-ish. and the other actors are boring.

whislte: this is the Promo poster.

at least he looks GOOD.

about: after tsunami money problems, career etc etc..

was attempting to watch, Da Ming Xing Xiao Geng Ban.

but the loading time of youtube is at a Crippled snail speed.

*colourful language*

got HIM. an exclusive at the horse riding event le :(

2008-09-24T21:23:00.002+08:00

Aloha!!
been buzzing around these few days.
work.home.sch.out.Gu.
wow~ so little time,
so much to do.
havent really got a rest till now.
and!! the holidays are almost OVER.
wat crap*
ding dong ding dong.
money earning days are limited.. duh!
oh yar.. Geylang PasaMalam is also coming to a close.
oh my! the return of the bitches.AHHH...

work is boring.
so glad that aiwen is finally coming back.
haha. i can imagine~!
moany people, after so loong.
are still questioning us about our relationship.
you tw0 sisters ar? Oo.. we do look so alike :)

life out of work is still ok~
head to GUGU house for dinner every off nights.
was so glad to be in their company again.
hees!
of course.. i rave about my zheng yuan chang to Gu.
she always say:
nv shuai b4 ar,
nv go chang b4 ar.. girly girly.
tsktsk! she likes ming dao la -.-
whatever~ i'm still proud of him.

outings were great.
went out with kakis and alone.
shop like mad. yeah.
planning to redo my wardrobe.
time to stop tshirt jeans tshirt jeans le...
was ___ this satisfied with my purchases >.<
oh yar! not forgetting the nice food.
P.S. i'm still eating mooncakes.
must help to clear stock at my GuGU's place.
the Yam ones are Nice.
didnt get ti eat the durian one though.

On my sinful pleasures.
ran out of vcd to watch le la..
all is DVD de, how can?
now.... i switch to korean ones.
damn.. even Hot Shot is also in DVD format. WTH!!!!
i curse and swear man.

footnote:
tang xing feng bao is great.
Lin Feng :)
Kevin Zheng Jia Yi got new show..
eyecandies. swoon!

2008-09-17T15:58:00.000+08:00

a passion for art. i like! :)

2008-09-17T15:28:00.002+08:00

i am proud of myself. yesterday.
WELL DONE TSY :)
was glad that i did what i did..
was quite worried that such an idea will turn out kuku-ish.
no ultimate motives;
and i didnt hope for much,
maybe just a simple thank you.
just want everyone to have a good time,
and of course have something to remb ont their birthday.
Birthdays are important.
am born wierd.
so the way i wish people birthdays is wierd too.
but hey! it's hard to come up with a one-of-a-kind way le.
cross my fingers and TaDa!
Glad that it worked out well >.<

i checked my results already.
yup!! i'm relieved.
was quite __ about pharmacology.
but all ends up well.
gotten my First SP 'A' Garde;
for Gems la. LOL.
all that coffee. not working.
alone at starbucks.
weight gain ended up worth well.
I want to thank people!!

Thank You Lady Luck,
for standing by me :)
Thank You Kelle Sis,
for studying me with me :)
Thank You Franco,
for answering my endless questions :)
Thank You Starbucks,
for your oh-so-nice coffee that kept me awake.
and..
i'm also sorry for killing too many trees,
i'm guilty of wasting lots of paper.

was watchinng Dou Nu.
my chinese han yu ping ying abit bad. LOL.
now i know why chicken is crazy about mike he.
he's not that handsome.
abit too beng. but His Style Rocks.
cant help being charmed by a guy who knows what he wants.
anyway,
the show.. already 3/4 through it.
aka. watch till 4am wor!!
a few parts are not very convincing.
they have only met for a few days,
and WOW. can love till so crazy already. LOL.
Hebe acting skills is supreme!
adores the way she scolds mike he in ths show.
NICE~
erm.. i have nth to say about Liwei.
Quoted from georgina:
he always xiang ai, ai bu dao.
meaning: wanna love, but cant love till.
AHEM~
cant buy TKS to collect le la.
abito usless cause media player cant play dvd.
and you know what!?
means cant buy MIng Zhong too.
argh.. a blessing in disguise.
can wait for the price to drop. LOL.
i am sooo TOOT.
registered at asian fanatics.
forgot to change the default gender from male to female.
ahh.. thanks tsy! -.-
so NOOB~
argh.. was a member already.
but i forgot the password.
now this. aiya aiya aiya!

footnote:
listening to Nicky lee's bad habit :)
so true~

2008-09-16T01:44:00.004+08:00

xiao zhong!! :))

the stone-age look.

no double eyelid tape. no conatct lens.

he's so brave to face the world bare. saluate!

i'm still looking for that cap.

brothers are forever.
at the opening of xiao gui's new shop.

now you know who inspired me to put on specs again.

addidas fall/winter fashion show.

he look damn great!

he's from taiwan. but hey!
ended up being the spokesman for japan's welcome to hiroshima project. LOL

he's 7th on the koren's top celebs list. highest ranking taiwan de..
next is ling zhi ying at 13th.

killer backview.

i feel so much better :)
no wonder my GuGU encourages my idol craze.
better to be madly in love with someone __ that far;
and __ that impossible to get. LOL.

2008-09-16T01:27:00.002+08:00

worth a note at my amazing translation:

how happy is your tmr.

it no longer concerns me.

your blessings. is bittersweet.

time.

changes the habit. repaired the wound.

it also disqualified me from missing you.

the most agonizing thing;

is what that is left unconcluded.

ming zong OST; half a love song

loved. spoilt. gone.

wronged. cried. pained.

exhausted. tired, cried.

confused. messed up. cold.

all is real.

the craze. the thoughts. the longing.

the insercured. the weak.

what i used to have but was lost.

i have forgotten.

mine.yours. his.

the good. the bad. the difficult.

the grey. the blue. the yellow.

the sour. the bitter. the sweet.

i still remeb.

what i wanted to forget.

what i really couldnt forget.

what i wante to return you.

all sealed.

as the train carries me round the island.

suddenly; i realise.

i miss you no more.

my happiness will return.

remembering what we once shared.

there's no need to question the worth.

my happiness will return.

leaving;

is not a choice bestowed to us.

forgotten. sealed.

ming zong OST; my happiness

2008-09-16T00:37:00.002+08:00

a new guy reported for work today.
smelly ah beng.
is thw worst of the lot!
argh* how can i work with such a person?!
you name it, he has done it.
drugs. glue. and all that cannot be mentioned.
wth exactly. he's only 16 years old.
in and out of CNB already.
Oh my tian. i was super scared today.
he. kept telling me life stories.
help!!
chicken was there :))
pop out of nowhere like what he usually does.
asked me who's he -.-
signalled him for help to visit me more often.
yes. he did come by for another time.
i was ____ this glad!
i survived today.
i even got him to call me big sis. LOL.
hard core ah beng i also meet le,
what can stop me?

off day is here soon.
then aiwen will be back to save me.
phew! my heart can only take this much..
was up bright and early for FYP.
i really need an umbrealla.
was trapped due to the rain.
but i wan a yellow de. how?
i shall lOOk around for it. hees!

i missed mooncake festival.
i was working.
didnt get to go chinese garden again.
chicken was like. you how old already!!
suggested to me:
i play with you la.
we use lighter and tissue paper, play on the spot.
i was like LOL.
hey... people just dun really get it.
ifeel that it's very touching to spend that day with people you cherish.
i really do.
tsktsk* no chance. for 3 years.
year 1 SP: kana PS.
year2 SP: spent with cousins, can remb i was EMO-ing at that time.
year 3 SP: working.
people just dun understand..
you wont know what is it really like.
HEY! imagine~
chinese garden
you. admiring this lantern.
and hey! i am just at the other side.
~okk.. watched too much idol drama.
if you missed sharing a mooncake festival with me,
i vow~ in future. i shall go with S.O (significant other)
it is IMPORTANT to me!
but that will be ____ this looong a time later.
haha. mr HUHU is good.
promised me boxes of mooncakes tmr. LOL.
i am glad.

footnote:
it bothers me.
it irks me.
it disturbs me.
wasting 3 years of mooncake festival.

2008-09-12T12:59:00.002+08:00

xiao zhong.

has been ____ this busy.

took part in the addidas fashion show. yet again.

haha. but nice what!~

oOo... specs!

not forgetting his roots.

at the CATWALK (his model agency) the quest for new girl finals.

swoon~

heard a couple of rumors from a friend.

got to check more on it before i relate them to here.

anyway! from the netizens.

LoB maybe out in taiwan on Nov :))

2008-09-12T12:45:00.002+08:00

i've been gone for long.
tsktsk*
working ma, therefore nth much to say.
Boring!!
afetr 15 days of non-stop work.
i'm finally on off again. YEAH!
but :( i'm back to work again tmr.
yikes..
dun think i'm able to play with lanterns AGAIN;
this lantern festival. at chinese garden.
argh! happen to be working when cousins plan to go there.
on Sunday.. ahh!!
like a broken record i whine.
3 freaking years at SP i wanna to go.
never once was it being realise.
crap*
nevertheless.. i've eaten mooncakes. at least.
craving for more as the actual day slowly come by.

At work. with the china girl aka A-na lo.
was Super High when aiwen came back to join me for 2 days.
we had soo much fun.
raving about our idols :)
cursing flexor. haha.
so happy!
now i'm back there alone~
haiz..

did not waste my holidays!
planned to watch all the idol dramas.
yes! i started >.<
fated to love.
till the third box le.. waiting not very patiently for the last box.
LOL. i rented them of course.
when the time is right, then i'll start collecting.
crazy about the soundtrack more then the show itself.
Erm.. xiao tian and qiao en just lacks the X factor;
that xiao zhong and ariel had in they kissed again.
but still not bad not bad! applause*
hey! i discovered that~
even though xiao tian may not be such a handsome lead actor.
his yan sheng just rock! very captivating >.<
yar... at least there's that.
and i dun find what's so great about that dylan guy too.
just another anaemic man. yawn!

got to get my hair cut today.
finally! :)
and it's down to town and wait for georgina.
to go shopping of course.
hey! i deserve a treat.
these 2 off-days.
up early to sch for FYP le.. haha

footnote:
mooncakes and yellow umbrella!

2008-09-03T01:41:00.001+08:00

eyecandy!! :)

2008-09-03T01:31:00.002+08:00

today is a special day.

Love or Bread Press Conference :)

finally.. i waited till this day.

yup! they started flimming already.

have to be around next year will it be done.

and release in taiwan.

Spore? Feb ba.. damn lag!

nevertheless.. i like >.<

green is the new fav colour..

nice hair~

2008-09-03T01:10:00.002+08:00

xiao zhong is really good.
just watched this video on youtube.
Him;
walking through HK airport to the departure hall.
he is aint like other stars.
no circle of bodyguards.
fans are there. of course!!
they..
kept stuffing things into his face. argh!
to get them signed.
normally, celebs will just sign a few and then hack already.
he signed ALL the way.
aw man.. >.<
his kuku Sitter still scolded him.
said: ask you dun sign a ready,
dun want to listen.
he just went: Aiya~
and contiune signning..
*swoon*
dunno where is he heading though.
The fans are really scary.
if i Were there.
would just get a good pic and put myself away to look.
dun interrupt his daily life too much ma.
tsktsk* such a tender-loving caring fan am i :)
he wore sunglasses then.
you know why?
high chance he didnt stick the double eyelid thingy.
yes.. he's single eyelid.
and he has to curl his eyelashes abit before going out.
too long and they gro straight into his eye ma.
heyhey!! not gay alright.
he's much better then xiao mei aka Huo Jun Xiang.
he got to put eyeliner!! -.-
and yes.. clad in addidas and addidas tote bag.
WOW! kana like guys who carry shoulder bags :)
not forgetting his fav Master Seven Cap.
where can i get one too??

2008-09-03T00:48:00.002+08:00

HoHoHo..
damn that Vincent.
argh*
he skipped work,
without even bothering to let amyone know.
played M.I.A.
wth!!
now..there's a serious lack of people.
there goes my off days :(
i'm sooo tired already le.
haiz.. chiong around 5 days of work le..
guess there's still 7 days more to go.
Save me!!

saw Chicken Bro today.
visited me at shop.
so qiao he's working at bugis too :)
loong time no see.
sales is really bad; not much people around.
so we managed to chat; quite abit.
got to know that he is;
taking driving lessons now. Car one wor.
lol. really wonder how is he going to pass.

tmr is a see-show day.
what will allen do to vincent?
bet he will do nth.
lack of people ma.
against one's morals.
tsktsk*

A meal a day started today.
Xiao Zhong does that too.
yup! in aid of tsy slim down >.<
hope it'll work.
meal of the day: Veg rice
Drink: Bubble tea
In btw snacks: 1 apple
JIA YOU.

footnote: toenails will be changed green tmr.
*Wink*

2008-09-01T01:20:00.003+08:00

Xiao Zhong

time.

yesterday was the Gucci Fashon Show at ShangHai.

i'm just in time to read and ogle about it :)

it's Fall already;

thus explaining the outfit.

a ltlle too intense ba..

not used to seeing him wear till so dark and mysterious..

i'm not bias.
but! he's the best among all the rich and famous.

Xiao Zhong is super hardworking.

was told to get tan and slimmer by the company.

for the new arjoe show.

bread or love.

how he did it? riding horses -.-

lost 3kg le..

lying on the tanning beds. Xiao Zhong is tall. *189cm*

thus only his body got tan, his face still the same.

abit Ke Xi since i dun really like tan people :(

They have started flimming!!

Love or Bread <3

snapshot by a taiwan netizen;

who was also a fan.

cant wait for th press conference and stuff..

He will be on Estiuque mag.

September Issue. i must find it to own it.

2008-09-01T00:52:00.002+08:00

i need to wake up at 0730 tmr..
and i'm still not asleep.
so be it!!

HOME.
a mighty discovery.
Laptop. is alive and back in my home.
think my dad went to repair it.
haha. it's working just right.
not new shows to watch so duh~
everything is good.
except!! i cant watch videos online.
HELP! cant live without my Joe Youtube Updates.
:( i have no flash player9.0
how to install??
therefore, i shall find peace.
reading the Joe Thread :))

WORK.
everyday. filled.
damn! so tiring~
worked with another foreign girl today.
suay suay is from China.
but dun look like one,
till she opens her mouth.
cant help it;
i'm bias!! >.<
she has been working there for sometime already.
hmm..
too much a lazy slacker.
dun bother packing and putting back stuff where they belong,
after finishing a customer.
tsktsk*
if aiwen was there to btich at her jiu hao.
Poor tsy to clean up after her.
yikes!!
saw Feng Jie today!!
so exciting....
new LV totebag.
she's not with her That BF.
but a married Man.
tsktsk*
what is the world coming to.
she still got heart to pop in and say Hi to me :)
she even asked:
wa.. you stick to this job very long ho..
i was like;
Ying Shui Shi Yuan ma!
money is the motivation.
the smile from ferlyn is the motivation.

LIFE.
all the same.
i'm an addict!
to J-Co donuts. LOL.
but hey..
only ate it for once yst.
damn nice:)
a great place to hang out too.
BUT. the lightning is too dim for reading.
no mag or newsapaer stand there.
And! the coffee CMI.
so stick to starbucks la~

Franco.
is a dumb dumb.
visited me by-chance at my shop the other day.
why is he in bugis?
slept past his bus stop..
but nevertheless;
happy to see a familar and talk-to-ablt face.
:)
one is better then three.

went to read all about Tarot Cards.
interested in it.
shall get it.
so many versions;
still dunno which one to get.
i really would like to know how accurate;
will my readings be..
we shall see~

went out with Yunli on thursday i think.
yeah! went spore touring.
was supposed to be at chinatown.
but we wandered~
till An Xiang Street.
Art!! it screamed.
country style cafe and bars.
*think lots of wood and checkered tablecloth*
artistic rural but damn expensive shops.
*it's a wonder they can survive there*
old-fashion bakeries.
*the egg tarts and lao po ping are to die for*
DINNER,
at somewhere nice of course.
WE. trekked from chinatown to Central.
had a japanese dinner at waraku :)
all went well and ended with a stroll by the riverside bars.
a few caught my eye.
Hooters! Clinic! yupyup*

met up with georgina too.
it's shopping!!
shopped like mad.
but all the stuff ended up without our sizes.
so kuku.
bought a pair of black specs.
same as what Xiao Zhong wore in HnC.
tsktsk* I like <3
saw the 3 blind mice at orchard.

EYECANDIES.
worked for 3 days.
not a single one sighted in bugis.
what a shame.
however,
there's this one ang moh on the train.
Handsome!!
and i was standing right in front of him.
such a heart throb.
really! throught the train's window;
i could see Woman sneeking a peek at him.
yadayada~

footnote:
the surname HOLT sounds great!

2008-08-27T14:25:00.003+08:00

Eyecandy lookout @.@

Xiao Zhong's summer riding event.

LOL. seriously, it's fall already.

wonder why they name it summer.. -.-

LOve that hair!

the hair singaporeans jsut cant get it right.. muhaha.

cute bow too.

sadly he's not looking at the camera..

aw man! nice..

let the ride began... :)

2008-08-27T13:53:00.003+08:00

back to original..
exams are over.
yup! finally~
lots of stuff happen.
damn.. shall relate it one by one.

Home.
bad things happened.
2 days before BB exam.
can you believe the nerve?
a perfect plan was lay out to spare me of future sorrows.
but now!
everyone namely; cousins.
seems to have forgotten about it.
Super cruel :(
it made me:
be happy during these 2 exam weeks.
harbouring false hopes,
building castles in the air!
damn sad.. but it's ok.
Forget it!! depend on nobody but myself.
Screw It*

Exam week.
was 'hard' at work.
overdose with starbucks.
mocha. green tea. latte.
eew~ cant even bear the thought of them now.
thou shall stay away..
till after the hols maybe >.< color="#6600cc">1 freaking KG.
aHHH... back to the same weight again.
sob* so xing ku jian abit of fats de wor..
in the holidays,
i shall strive!!

need to thank Franco.
haha. my exam advisor.
3 cheers~
thank you :)

work.
back to bugis.
what else? they really need help.
duh~ so scary.
the thought of going back.
but. think of the $$

idol.
my favourite part.
damn labtop got short-circuited.
and it was spoilt!
to the death of me~
no more youtube, idol chasing.
hey!! have been suffering from withdrawal syndromes for 3 weeks.
:( i miss xiao zhong. ALot.
i am quick.
solutions to this problem!
buying a labtop is too expensive.
i shall~ get those portable dvd player with a screen.
can watch till i go crazy.
i want one with a bigger screen.
then i can ogle till i swoon :)
but stupid cheeyong said it's very maid-like.
duh* dun care.
with it! i could rent and buy and watch.

the part two of HnC is out already.
means the show has already ended in taiwan.
heard from the netizens.
SOON~ it will be on cable.
not that i can watch.
Erm.. just seeing the AD with Him inside makes me happy.

i almost forgot.
CURSE MY AUNT.
threw my Xiao Zong poster away.
damn her!! created a fuss of course.
sadly, i'm too nice.
gave in to her.
family affairs.
almost wanted to report and dad to the police.
hey! wtf*
you chose the wrong opponent to be violent towards.
anyway, not that i nv done it before.
who cares about family ties.
my family= GuGu and cousins.
i am that hard hearted.
comt to think of it,
maybe nothing could have happen if i didnt look;
high and low for that poster.
But it's smth i like.
and damn treasure.
so many other posters on the wall.
so Qiao need to tear off my fav one.
worse then slug spit!
I LOATHED THEM~
spoken with Gusto!
the poster:
it was signed blar blar by xiao zhong.
travelled through all major bookstores in spore.
No more le.
damn..
i shall not put up any posters.
keep the pictures in my phone.
my house is so scary.
made up my mind!
since i cant get away from there.
anything impt missing,
i shall call the police and report Theft.
lalala~ my house got soo many china men.
of course it could stang through.
dun care ar!

zhang dong liang is in a new drama.
with an unknown singer girl.
the title is very kuku:
smth smth bao bei.. haha.
not out in dvd yet.

relac one corner.
meeting yunli!
meeting georgina!
yeah.. girls night out.
shop til you drop.
they have to go idol chasing with me..
cant wait >.< tsy got lobang.
holiday inn buffet high-tea voucher.
one for one de wor :)
but the problem is i cant remb where i left it.
argh...

footnote:
this hols i shall learn how to read tarot cards >.<

the lyrics:
sweet about me.
nth sweet about me~ yeah..
the world is better place;
upside down! =)

2008-08-15T22:49:00.004+08:00

News.

Yeah*
Spore can finally feel an Olympics medal again.
after like 48years?
duh* table tennis!what else?
badminton idol is so CMI this year.
heard that he cant even hit the shuttlecock accurately.
be the death of me!
cant help to wonder~
if you remb..
earlier this year;
there is the SuS_Low and L**Home.we@ breakup thingy.
hmm... Money matters are no joke!
before the match for the silver medal began.
i wasn still Lalala~
saying that,
maybe they're still raw over the breakup.
distracted you see.
since they'll still be living in the same 'village' at Beijing.
haha. i am assuming.
but!
they must be secretly fighting;
to see who will churn out better results.
no need to say. The Ladies!
i can just imagine,
later when he conguates her on her win;
and she console him on his lost.
super LOL.
alright. i shall not dwell on this anymore.
later kana sue for slander.
all names are unknown.
fictional characters! :)

I Read! that they actually..
prepared 10,000 condoms for the sporrtsmen.
Erm..
why 10,000?
because..
in Athens and previous years...
they were sold out, cant be found.
and you now putting So Many;
body beautiful, too much time to spare,
Youths at one place.
you bound to get it.
especially when the winners celebrates,
and the losers try to drown their sorrows.
Smart Move!!
Hey.. but just imagine,
how many new super sportsman babies will there be,
if incidents do happen.
isnt it better?
the gd genes with the gd genes.
>.< Life.

Georgina finally finished her exams.
dated me today.
with a motive of course.
want me to accompany her to SAA.
no prob though! met lots of 2A pp on the way.
great day! they must be having exams.
ate Sakae for lunch.
i controlled.. didnt eat soo much this time.
camped at starbucks till working time.
hmm.. very relac! i like.

Idol.

made a great change.
stopped buying Cleo and Seventeens magazine.
in this way,
more funds to xiao zhong supporting! :)
oh yah..
watched a varitey show on channel56 with him inside.
damn! he and the rest of Honey Clover cast.
eew.. hate Janien.
i have her face plastered on my wall.
despise it! if wont for the rest of the 3 eyecandies.
door also dun have!! *in chinese*

caught the first episode of
Ming Zhong Zhu Ding I love you.
cant stand the Xiao Tian's face. argh*
not handsome. acting skills so~so~
the starting is abit too Wang Zi Bian Qing Wa though.
shall see how it goes..
still dun understand how can they make record high ratings!

now i wanna talk about bed scenes.
you read right.
HnC, and Ming Zhong.
the bedscenes abit too transparent le ba..
alot of youths will be watching le.
tsktsk* caught a few ads and pics of them
damn! how can they cut off scenes from;
Er Zhou Ju 2 when they allow such stuff on other shows.
that must be why Ming Zhong is so hot -.-
and i must say!
even though i admire Xiao Zhong.
his be scene with the other older gal in HnC is GROSS!
you see..
he likes an older girl in the show.
it's utterly disgusting.
sorry! i dun really agree to BigSisLilBro thing.
Unless, the lilBro looks mature enought to pass off the same age.
but hey!! Xiao Zhong looks younger then the Aunty.
too obvious for comfort.
Gross*

Shop.

getting damn worried for my bugis shop.
alright. it's not mine.
due to trademarks and copyrights.
alot of the shirts cant be sold. in the near future.
undergone renovation to rearrange stuff.
heard from others that sales is really pathetic.
it is really record Low.
tnr is my turn.
really damn scared!
dun even know if i shld wear my KTM.
we aint even hanging it in display anymore.
but what will Allen think if i dun.
So confused! i really hope.
it will be alright tmr.
Customers pls come to me >.<>i want to save the shop!!
haiz..

On the other hand.

had advices from Cousins <3
plan abotted.
in truth,
i really dunno what i want out of it.
i enjoy living my busy,
yet some sort aimless life now.
emotions in checked!
dun really..
want to be so exhausted.
so scared. so messy.
dun really have the energy.
knew i shld indeed fight,
or try for what i like.
I am TSY.
of course will do that la!
but different case le.
really dun wanna be so exhausting inside.
i made up my mind.
From a distance~

footnote:
it's diff blue nails day.
nail colours are getting limited!
safety pants.

2008-08-13T15:38:00.006+08:00

3 eyecandies side by side.

how much can the heart takes? >.<

from right to left:

Lego, Eddie, Xiao Zhong.

you see..

i am rational,

Eddie is the heart-throb!

Xiao Zhong;

he may not be the best.

i just like the style and personality.

Erm.. let me think*

Tall and sturdy.

elegant with maturity.

Serious yet fun-filled.

very hard to describe la!!

just one lOOk.

spells: sercurity.

*i shall think of how to put it down in words*

Eddie's too flashy.