Sunday, December 05, 2010
Automobiles.Bikes.
Gathered extensive knowledge of them all..
must be my work and just a general interest i guess..
saw it somewhere..,
was glad that One share the same interest as I do.
''Likes cars, bikes and ....''
Not that bloody thick skin to say that i influenced it-.-''
Nevertheless..,
secretly i felt guilty..
May each ride be a safe one..
Gathered extensive knowledge of them all..
must be my work and just a general interest i guess..
saw it somewhere..,
was glad that One share the same interest as I do.
''Likes cars, bikes and ....''
Not that bloody thick skin to say that i influenced it-.-''
Nevertheless..,
secretly i felt guilty..
May each ride be a safe one..
12/05/2010 10:11:00 PM
A lack of time.
4 years worth of verbal diarrhoea left vacant for too loong.
perhaps! if i did stay true,
Thoughts would have become much clearer.
Actions would have been implemended.
I ask myself: Is it too late to pick it up again?
Sometime, Somewhere..,
A few times,
I do wonder if those who had been here did remain..
Selfish aint I?
*pondering*
4 years worth of verbal diarrhoea left vacant for too loong.
perhaps! if i did stay true,
Thoughts would have become much clearer.
Actions would have been implemended.
I ask myself: Is it too late to pick it up again?
Sometime, Somewhere..,
A few times,
I do wonder if those who had been here did remain..
Selfish aint I?
*pondering*
12/05/2010 10:07:00 PM
Saturday, October 16, 2010
was amazed that i still remember the password to Here;
after being gone for so long..
Back from HK..
with not much of a change.
tried not to be bothered, kept a distance did i?
was hit with the truth..
all that we guessed and predicted;
but tried to keep a neutral mind, to give The One the benefit of doubt.
to choose to trust The One you know.
It was all but a Lie.
Supposed to be SO mad. SO disappointed.
Supposed to be ignore and not forgive.
Sad. Extremely sad. Of course I am.
The period after the showdown..
thought One would be ashamed to face Thou again.
But hey! how does one earn his forgiveness by being absent?
everyone deserves a second chance, right?
I sincerely thought.
Everything was back to the norm,
Very Quickly.
People around were amazed.
How do you manage to face Him like such..
I wondered alot about it.
So curious;
if he felt the weird-ness of the so-normal situation too.
All were Hands-up and still are;
that it is all a Mistake.
Eating here. Wandering around there.
The good times after the showdown..
it was as if all were resolved.
Gestures deemed special.
A smirk or smile deemed exclusively mine.
seen given out to another.
A cruel slap in the face.
To hell for being nice to a newcomer.
dished it out. appeased.
but not for long..
Waiting around for the other;
when it is clear that i Detest it.
Refusal to talk it out.
Playing the fool as if nothing happened.
believed *secretly* of self-relisation.
so be it so be it..
alas! nothing's changed.
the two yet the same..
To look at such,
To hear such; disgusts me..
and worst of all: the heart hurts.
Displeasure voiced.
but was ignored by the other..
what to do next?
i really cannot afford to see.
I really Cannot.
turned another way, when i see.
walked another way, i did.
be away, to not witness. i did!
the after hours are still as if normal..
But the heart is still heavy..
As if a knot, still there.
it doesnt feel nice to have a constant worry.
To voice it out again?
To keep quiet and continue...?
i really dunno.
Many ugily said:
He's buying time yet again;
to see if the next fish (newcomer) got hooked?
before confirming anything with Thou.
WHAT!?
Deep inside, i know i got to say it out loud to The One.
But many deemed this situation has no case;
and it may even deduct my 'marks'...
The cost of keeping silence is slowly taking effect.
how to how to?
Maybe the end is near..
the two months to next year;
seems a day too long.
i'm afraid i may not have the strength to last till then..
So afraid all the was built, all the hardwork,
all the moments made to go to waste..
I will need a place to hide,
when it all falls apart.
A place to hide;
for a very long time..
after being gone for so long..
Back from HK..
with not much of a change.
tried not to be bothered, kept a distance did i?
was hit with the truth..
all that we guessed and predicted;
but tried to keep a neutral mind, to give The One the benefit of doubt.
to choose to trust The One you know.
It was all but a Lie.
Supposed to be SO mad. SO disappointed.
Supposed to be ignore and not forgive.
Sad. Extremely sad. Of course I am.
The period after the showdown..
thought One would be ashamed to face Thou again.
But hey! how does one earn his forgiveness by being absent?
everyone deserves a second chance, right?
I sincerely thought.
Everything was back to the norm,
Very Quickly.
People around were amazed.
How do you manage to face Him like such..
I wondered alot about it.
So curious;
if he felt the weird-ness of the so-normal situation too.
All were Hands-up and still are;
that it is all a Mistake.
Eating here. Wandering around there.
The good times after the showdown..
it was as if all were resolved.
Gestures deemed special.
A smirk or smile deemed exclusively mine.
seen given out to another.
A cruel slap in the face.
To hell for being nice to a newcomer.
dished it out. appeased.
but not for long..
Waiting around for the other;
when it is clear that i Detest it.
Refusal to talk it out.
Playing the fool as if nothing happened.
believed *secretly* of self-relisation.
so be it so be it..
alas! nothing's changed.
the two yet the same..
To look at such,
To hear such; disgusts me..
and worst of all: the heart hurts.
Displeasure voiced.
but was ignored by the other..
what to do next?
i really cannot afford to see.
I really Cannot.
turned another way, when i see.
walked another way, i did.
be away, to not witness. i did!
the after hours are still as if normal..
But the heart is still heavy..
As if a knot, still there.
it doesnt feel nice to have a constant worry.
To voice it out again?
To keep quiet and continue...?
i really dunno.
Many ugily said:
He's buying time yet again;
to see if the next fish (newcomer) got hooked?
before confirming anything with Thou.
WHAT!?
Deep inside, i know i got to say it out loud to The One.
But many deemed this situation has no case;
and it may even deduct my 'marks'...
The cost of keeping silence is slowly taking effect.
how to how to?
Maybe the end is near..
the two months to next year;
seems a day too long.
i'm afraid i may not have the strength to last till then..
So afraid all the was built, all the hardwork,
all the moments made to go to waste..
I will need a place to hide,
when it all falls apart.
A place to hide;
for a very long time..
10/16/2010 03:41:00 AM
Sunday, August 08, 2010
Counting down to the start of my leave...
It's still a week away (too long)..,
But there's still so many things undone..
Ahem!
Luggage to pack,
Routes to plan.. Zzz!
With a constant distaction..,
Kinda hard to start things going..
Those who cared..
Asked:
Why the sudden trip?
True to be told..
Maybe I need do need some time away.
From distractions and whatsoever..
Or maybe a week of Change,
Hopefully!! I'll see things differently when I get back..
*cross my fingers*
As dumbdumb as YY can be..
I Thought I could drop a bomb;
To do smth that I always have no courage for..
To stand up for once and demand an answer..
To I dunno.. Break that bad habit I guess.
And at the same time;
To gather enough armour for protection-
For what just seems so obvious to truely land..
Greedy enough..
I hope to be immuned!
( to heartache )
To be hard-hearted!
To have more then enough determination to stay away..
Deep down.
I know that it won't work....
It's still a week away (too long)..,
But there's still so many things undone..
Ahem!
Luggage to pack,
Routes to plan.. Zzz!
With a constant distaction..,
Kinda hard to start things going..
Those who cared..
Asked:
Why the sudden trip?
True to be told..
Maybe I need do need some time away.
From distractions and whatsoever..
Or maybe a week of Change,
Hopefully!! I'll see things differently when I get back..
*cross my fingers*
As dumbdumb as YY can be..
I Thought I could drop a bomb;
To do smth that I always have no courage for..
To stand up for once and demand an answer..
To I dunno.. Break that bad habit I guess.
And at the same time;
To gather enough armour for protection-
For what just seems so obvious to truely land..
Greedy enough..
I hope to be immuned!
( to heartache )
To be hard-hearted!
To have more then enough determination to stay away..
Deep down.
I know that it won't work....
8/08/2010 04:36:00 PM
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Dun waste the love.
7/29/2010 10:06:00 AM
Thursday, July 15, 2010
My annual leave is going to be here soon.
Missed the non-working days like hell.
Remb during my first leave;
I was busy touring the zoos..
Haha. Thought that this second leave-
I'll be touring the museums..
But hey! Caught the travelling bug.
Wanted to go somewhere foreign,
And at the same time shop till I drop!
Wad aiming for Thailand with a few friends..
But sadly, we can't apply for the same leave...
Thou hereby announce-
Going to HK this aug
Yup! You got it right..
Must put our HK friend to some use..
Heard it's the typhoon season!!-.-
Pray hard it won't be there when I am there...
*cross my fingers*
hope that's my kind of things to shop there too!>.<
Perhaps I'll come back;
Fluent in Canto!! Who knows!?!
I was questioned..
Do u really one to go to HK;
Or is it to take revenge..
Wahaha. A creative thought!
It did put me into thinking..
Seeing the YY's pathetic state now,
Would rather be close then apart right..-.-
Maybe it'll be of some good use to exchange roles..
To not be the one left in spore, worrying..
We shall see..
Footnote:
Promise to meet for mahjong regularly..
Good luck to my night shift later!
Lady Luck, I do need you:)
MERCI^^
Missed the non-working days like hell.
Remb during my first leave;
I was busy touring the zoos..
Haha. Thought that this second leave-
I'll be touring the museums..
But hey! Caught the travelling bug.
Wanted to go somewhere foreign,
And at the same time shop till I drop!
Wad aiming for Thailand with a few friends..
But sadly, we can't apply for the same leave...
Thou hereby announce-
Going to HK this aug
Yup! You got it right..
Must put our HK friend to some use..
Heard it's the typhoon season!!-.-
Pray hard it won't be there when I am there...
*cross my fingers*
hope that's my kind of things to shop there too!>.<
Perhaps I'll come back;
Fluent in Canto!! Who knows!?!
I was questioned..
Do u really one to go to HK;
Or is it to take revenge..
Wahaha. A creative thought!
It did put me into thinking..
Seeing the YY's pathetic state now,
Would rather be close then apart right..-.-
Maybe it'll be of some good use to exchange roles..
To not be the one left in spore, worrying..
We shall see..
Footnote:
Promise to meet for mahjong regularly..
Good luck to my night shift later!
Lady Luck, I do need you:)
MERCI^^
7/15/2010 07:06:00 PM
Saturday, June 19, 2010
FrAnco's terribly slow..
Despite my oh-so-detail instructions,
He just can't put what he heard into actions- To create a twitter account.
So frustrating!
Hey there..
If you saw this..
Ahem! I'll make sure you will anyway..
Please hurry and create one.
Before I roar your hostel down..
I applaud myself.
To forgo the easy money and not work tml's Sunday shift..
Still feeling super slow after yesterday's MC...
just wanna take it easy.
I'll miss the good old money nxt month.
I'll tear my hair apart with boredom tml.
Just no motivation to get cracking..
You can say:
The pre-night shift syndrome.
I DETEST IT.
No good for the skin.
No good for the social life.
~#^€¥¥ Night Shift!
Footnote:
Going to my first ever 2a outing tonight.
So super shy!!
Despite my oh-so-detail instructions,
He just can't put what he heard into actions- To create a twitter account.
So frustrating!
Hey there..
If you saw this..
Ahem! I'll make sure you will anyway..
Please hurry and create one.
Before I roar your hostel down..
I applaud myself.
To forgo the easy money and not work tml's Sunday shift..
Still feeling super slow after yesterday's MC...
just wanna take it easy.
I'll miss the good old money nxt month.
I'll tear my hair apart with boredom tml.
Just no motivation to get cracking..
You can say:
The pre-night shift syndrome.
I DETEST IT.
No good for the skin.
No good for the social life.
~#^€¥¥ Night Shift!
Footnote:
Going to my first ever 2a outing tonight.
So super shy!!
6/19/2010 02:27:00 PM
Happy birthday Yuan Chang!!
6/19/2010 01:24:00 PM
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Had a smashing 21st birthday.
The YY style:)
No great parties etc..
Just spending the day with those who matters..
Or shld I say with those who;
Play an essential role in my life now..
The norm- eat movie stroll.
Everything just feel so different even though it's the same old place..
Must be the AGE! -.-
Had a very nice dinner with The cousins..
And ktv afterward was great.
Was shocked speehless!
When I saw my 4 years old baby cousin:
Singing DOWN-.-
That hip hop Xiao Hun Hun song..
The world has changed.. Haha.
First time YY did sing during a ktv section.
The 29th deserve smth special:)
PRESENTS!!
I heart.
Received the essentials..
Wow! Saved a ton of money..
Haha. And you know what!?
I received a huge yuan chang's poster!
I was like GOSH- I really need that.
How dumdumb of me not to make one for myself..
Jin Jia gamsa yo!
The essentials an the frivolous..
Hmm.. I heart! <3
Without knowing..
I'm into my 2nd week of the 21st.
Kanabate!
Footnote:
Weekdays working hours.
Rainy day.
Umbrellas. Passer-bys. Orchard.
Mocha. Outdoor starbucks.
Back to the olden days...
I miss~
The YY style:)
No great parties etc..
Just spending the day with those who matters..
Or shld I say with those who;
Play an essential role in my life now..
The norm- eat movie stroll.
Everything just feel so different even though it's the same old place..
Must be the AGE! -.-
Had a very nice dinner with The cousins..
And ktv afterward was great.
Was shocked speehless!
When I saw my 4 years old baby cousin:
Singing DOWN-.-
That hip hop Xiao Hun Hun song..
The world has changed.. Haha.
First time YY did sing during a ktv section.
The 29th deserve smth special:)
PRESENTS!!
I heart.
Received the essentials..
Wow! Saved a ton of money..
Haha. And you know what!?
I received a huge yuan chang's poster!
I was like GOSH- I really need that.
How dumdumb of me not to make one for myself..
Jin Jia gamsa yo!
The essentials an the frivolous..
Hmm.. I heart! <3
Without knowing..
I'm into my 2nd week of the 21st.
Kanabate!
Footnote:
Weekdays working hours.
Rainy day.
Umbrellas. Passer-bys. Orchard.
Mocha. Outdoor starbucks.
Back to the olden days...
I miss~
6/10/2010 12:15:00 PM